Pacing before jumping

[ornitier199]

Well I'm here, at my spot where I can jump from. I've been for 3 hours just wandering back and forth for some shitty unknown reason.
I constantly keep pacing between DO it and just leave, when I get close and backing again, all these thoughts and shit come rushing in all at once. I was sure I wasn't gonna do this before I got here, but now, I'm just sitting here being a stupid bitch like I can't just get it over with already. I came all this way
this is just another onslaught of pacing ive been doing for hours
I'm not sacred just all the crap ive gotten attached to beforehand is pissing me off from doing it.
my game, ryan, all of it.
shouldn't taken something to stop these intruding thoughts so i could only act o impulse, not that i had anything like that anyways
guess ill be here for longer while until i fucking do it

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm not sure that I could ever personally ctb by jumping, it sounds like a terrifying way to leave this world. Ctb really is so difficult after all. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do, and I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point.

 

[FallingGrace]

Hey, if today's not your day, then it's not your day. Go home and get warm with a cup of tea or a blanket. There will always be another bus

 

[Justsad30]

There's no pressure to do it now if you're second guessing it. Is there somewhere else you could sit for a while while you think it over?

 

[houseofleaves]

heeyy, you will be able to return here, right? i mean, there's absolutely no shame in not doing it right now

 

[lostmylove]

If it's not the right time it's not the right time.

You might legit have to run and jump in order to actually do something like this. It can't be done by walking slowly to the edge.