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blinker7

blinker7

Member
Sep 1, 2025
5
Hi There guys! :smiling:

I have been looking around this this site for a few days and have noticed there is skepticism about using OD as a method to CTB. I totally understand that, but if planed right I find hard to believe it does not work. I tried looking for a SN source, but it is literally imposible to find one that will sell it to individuals, you need to have company...

For context, I'm a drug-naïve (I don't even drink alcohol) small (1,7 m - 5 ft 7 in) young male that weight 56 kg (123 lbs). I don't take any medication, aside from the occasional paracetamol if I have a headache. The times I have been under general anesthesia, I got knocked out super quickly.

I'm still trying to determine the corrects amounts (may be you guys could help me with that), but here is what I have sketched so far.

I plan to take 300 ml a day of 100% grapefruit juice for 3 days until the CTB day. 2 hours before the OD I would take another 300 ml. Using a mortar I would crush the 10 40 mg pill of Oxycodone and 20 2 mg pills of Clonazepam. Using a portable blender I would mix it all in 150 ml of water. Before putting the blend up my bum, I would use suppositories and an enema to clean my intestines. After that, using a big syringe with flexible tube (like a thin hose) I would put in the blend deep in my intestines.

I will be doing this in a hotel, so there is zero chance that I will be discovered shortly after and taken to the hospital. I find hard to believe that being totally respiratory depressed for at least 10 hours does not kill you, particularly some one small like me.

I already have the Clonazepam pills. I'm in the process of buying the Oxycodone, but still have not. If you think there is a better alternative, please tell me. I'm really open to your suggestions as I'm super afraid of suffering while doing this.

I'm a not native English speaker..., sorry :hihi:
 
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nobodycaresaboutme

nobodycaresaboutme

maybe my English kinda sucks
Jun 30, 2025
701
Sorry but I strongly advise against this.
Oxycodone and Clonazepam can cause an interaction. Grapefruit juice can boost the effect. It can be fatal. But this method is not backed at all. What proves that your plan is right and brings a certain death?
There are reasons why members are skeptical. The failed attempt means that you'll end up in a psych ward and get marked as suicidal. So we avoid uncertain methods and follow the "protocol" as much as possible.
If this sounds judgmental, I'm sorry. But I don't want you to take an unnecessary risk.

For more infomation (maybe you've read already):
 
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blinker7

blinker7

Member
Sep 1, 2025
5
Sorry but I strongly advise against this.
Oxycodone and Clonazepam can cause an interaction. Grapefruit juice can boost the effect. It can be fatal. But this method is not backed at all. What proves that your plan is right and brings a certain death?
There are reasons why members are skeptical. The failed attempt means that you'll end up in a psych ward and get marked as suicidal. So we avoid uncertain methods and follow the "protocol" as much as possible.
If this sounds judgmental, I'm sorry. But I don't want you to take an unnecessary risk.

For more infomation (maybe you've read already):
Hey! Don't worry, not judgmental at all. Thanks for taking the time to answer, I really appreciate that.
I finally found a reputable source that sells SN to individuals. In fact, nowhere in their website there is an option to buy as a company. It has pretty good Google reviews so I order it. Let see what happens...
 
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tretion

tretion

i have a restraining order from god atp
Aug 28, 2025
142
Hi There guys! :smiling:

I have been looking around this this site for a few days and have noticed there is skepticism about using OD as a method to CTB. I totally understand that, but if planed right I find hard to believe it does not work. I tried looking for a SN source, but it is literally imposible to find one that will sell it to individuals, you need to have company...

For context, I'm a drug-naïve (I don't even drink alcohol) small (1,7 m - 5 ft 7 in) young male that weight 56 kg (123 lbs). I don't take any medication, aside from the occasional paracetamol if I have a headache. The times I have been under general anesthesia, I got knocked out super quickly.

I'm still trying to determine the corrects amounts (may be you guys could help me with that), but here is what I have sketched so far.

I plan to take 300 ml a day of 100% grapefruit juice for 3 days until the CTB day. 2 hours before the OD I would take another 300 ml. Using a mortar I would crush the 10 40 mg pill of Oxycodone and 20 2 mg pills of Clonazepam. Using a portable blender I would mix it all in 150 ml of water. Before putting the blend up my bum, I would use suppositories and an enema to clean my intestines. After that, using a big syringe with flexible tube (like a thin hose) I would put in the blend deep in my intestines.

I will be doing this in a hotel, so there is zero chance that I will be discovered shortly after and taken to the hospital. I find hard to believe that being totally respiratory depressed for at least 10 hours does not kill you, particularly some one small like me.

I already have the Clonazepam pills. I'm in the process of buying the Oxycodone, but still have not. If you think there is a better alternative, please tell me. I'm really open to your suggestions as I'm super afraid of suffering while doing this.

I'm a not native English speaker..., sorry :hihi:
good luck to you, personally the last thing id do as a suicide method tho is stick something up my ass
 

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