I only have a week left. From there I will bid my last bearings, draft my final will, which will be not much different than the one already present except the location of the source and not talk about my death publicly; and ctb thereafter.
I spent the day SH and hurting more than ever before since i've never SH like this before in past.
but giving up on delusions and accepting hat i can have peace in death soon is now the only thing i look forward too.
i'll add to my gallery thread in a moment, my only time i'm allowed to be sad over this, but i'm still impulsive to ctb even now. cutting to keep intrusive thoughts from staying alive at bay, but i'm not overdosing again, don't need to that either. i have what i need when the time comes no messing it up now.
i sure anybody looking at this and that sees me as some idiot with wishful thinking , all i can say is i'm sorry you do.
i cant even be bother to remember to delete this before i do it, i'm grown pretty numb and impulsive to ctb now. my limit as been reached my life support officially pulled.
dunno why i'm apologizing but i'm sorry for being a parasite that stressed everyone whom i ever met in this life, world out.
I spent the day SH and hurting more than ever before since i've never SH like this before in past.
but giving up on delusions and accepting hat i can have peace in death soon is now the only thing i look forward too.
i'll add to my gallery thread in a moment, my only time i'm allowed to be sad over this, but i'm still impulsive to ctb even now. cutting to keep intrusive thoughts from staying alive at bay, but i'm not overdosing again, don't need to that either. i have what i need when the time comes no messing it up now.
i sure anybody looking at this and that sees me as some idiot with wishful thinking , all i can say is i'm sorry you do.
i cant even be bother to remember to delete this before i do it, i'm grown pretty numb and impulsive to ctb now. my limit as been reached my life support officially pulled.
dunno why i'm apologizing but i'm sorry for being a parasite that stressed everyone whom i ever met in this life, world out.
