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ghost space, ghosts pace
- Feb 10, 2020
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(In the event that I take SN, I will be absolutely certain of my choice. If I was doubting myself even a little, I would simply wait and give myself more time to think.)
Here, I'm specifically discussing the overwhelming feeling of survival instinct and a potential way feel it without it controlling me.
Here is my main dilemma:
For SN, I know there's a small window of time before you're past the point where you can't be saved. I also know that for me, personally, fighting survival instinct just makes me feel it more intensely and panic.
A potential solution I've been considering:
I've been thinking about planning on CTB somewhere close to where I could get medical care so I can tell myself,
"You can opt out and get help if you want to. Or, you can hold on a little while longer until you're unconscious."
This is a method I've been using in exposure therapy for agoraphobia. I'll venture out a little, while staying close to where I live or having meds on hand so that I can choose to retreat if I feel too unsafe.
Just knowing the sanctuary of my home or my medication is easily accessible substantially lessens my panic, leaving me feeling more willing, brave, and in control.
I am curious if this would apply to my plans to CTB in regards to lessening the intensity of SI.
Just thought I would share to see if anyone had thoughts or their own experiences to add.
Here, I'm specifically discussing the overwhelming feeling of survival instinct and a potential way feel it without it controlling me.
Here is my main dilemma:
For SN, I know there's a small window of time before you're past the point where you can't be saved. I also know that for me, personally, fighting survival instinct just makes me feel it more intensely and panic.
A potential solution I've been considering:
I've been thinking about planning on CTB somewhere close to where I could get medical care so I can tell myself,
"You can opt out and get help if you want to. Or, you can hold on a little while longer until you're unconscious."
This is a method I've been using in exposure therapy for agoraphobia. I'll venture out a little, while staying close to where I live or having meds on hand so that I can choose to retreat if I feel too unsafe.
Just knowing the sanctuary of my home or my medication is easily accessible substantially lessens my panic, leaving me feeling more willing, brave, and in control.
I am curious if this would apply to my plans to CTB in regards to lessening the intensity of SI.
Just thought I would share to see if anyone had thoughts or their own experiences to add.
