I'm never getting out of my OCD. Can't buy clothes. Nothing fits me. I don't have a life anymore. My whole body is wrong. And what is the deal about pants only being made now with stretch? It's exhausting. I need to CTB soon to get out of this nightmare. I wish I had the N right now. My life is completely over. I should have done something about it when I was 13. Should have called my aunt to get help in my teens. Now it's too late. My whole life is a mess.
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Bitcoin (BTC):Ethereum (ETH):Monero (XMR):My body is wrong too. I'm so sorry you're dealing with OCD. Try some OCD meditation videos. They have helpt me a little.
My life is a complete mess now! After being an addict for so many years and getting out, never buying clothes because I just was at home using. Nothing fits me. My whole body is wrong. I hate myself. And either I'm cold or hot. I can't buy any clothes and I hate my body. I hate myself. I just want out, now! I'm saving up for N but I'm fucking desperate now. I want out. People around me say I should keep fighting but I can't. I have 2 kids. One of them I don't see. And the other is only 10 months old. I should never have had kids. But I can't live for them. My life is useless. I have so much anxiety now. I can't live for nobody. I want out. I want peace. I want to rest. I want out.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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I'm sorry that things are so hopeless. Life is just so horrible. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.I have severe ocd to. I want out to but am staying alive for my mom so I know how you feel
Depressed_Kettle
Experienced
- Apr 25, 2021
- 252
Ch92921
The call of the void
- Dec 29, 2018
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Diabetes is hereditary, autoimmun diseases is hereditary, your individual risk for be being fat is hereditary, you risk for nearsightedness is hereditary
its genetic interacting with outworld
Depressed_Kettle
Experienced
- Apr 25, 2021
- 252
Partly but also environment based.
You could have no genetics predisposing you for OCD but due to a traumatic and bad environment develop OCD. The reverse is also possible.Last edited:I have OCD too. I find it bearable with a good treatment. ERP helps and meds too
Yes. It is definitely my environment at childhood and teens that made my OCD. I have OCD regarding my body and clothes. Nothing feels comfortable to me. Have so much difficulties buying clothes and wearing them. It has destroyed my life. My life is now a mess. It didn't work doing drugs a long time either. You say it is reversible. If it is with me it would be a miracle. Just started new anti-depressants/OCD medicine and it would be a miracle if it worked. I'm thinking about CTB every moment of the hour now.
Also. I don't understand my condition. I see everybody else wearing clothes and being in their body and feeling fine. Why can't I? I don't get it. I don't understand it. And it's annoying. It causes anxiety and depression. And I've been drugging myself since teens. I should been removed from my parents and lived with other family members instead. Then I'm sure I wouldn't have ended here now.
Instead I just smoked my teens away in my room. With my parents not interfering. I blame them alot, but they say they didn't know about it. Yeah right.
If this new medicine work it would be a miracle. But I really don't have any hope it will. I don't like being in this body. And I don't understand my condition.
Some say that OCD reminds of PTSD. Being in a traumatic time of period and couldn't get out of it, so OCD is developed to cope with the traumaLast edited:
finalexit
Member
- Jan 24, 2021
- 84
I feel ya. OCD is hell. I'm constantly uncomfortable in clothes as well, and in my own skin
Are you? I thought it was only me. I hate it. Every minute, every hour.
finalexit
Member
- Jan 24, 2021
- 84
Yeah pretty sure I've always been this way, going back to early childhood. Is clothing your main OCD obsession?
My OCD is regarding clothes and my body yes. I don't feel home in this body. I don't feel safe and comfortable. And it makes me anxious and depressed.
Its like my body is build wrong. Started new anti-depressants/OCD medicine and it would be a miracle if it works.
I've come to a place where I no longer can live life. And it hurts to see others just wake up in the morning and living their life. Going to work and enjoying their free time. I'm just anxious, depressed and constantly uncomfortable.
finalexit
Member
- Jan 24, 2021
- 84
Sorry to hear. I feel the same way all the time. The body an anxiety and discomfort prison. No relief. I've tried various medications over the years as well but no success.I have OCD and it is literally eating up my life inside and out.
Have you tried all the drugs out there for OCD? Lexapro and Zoloft worked REALLY well for me until a traumatic event pushed me back to hell. But they gave me 15 years of happiness. The point is, all drugs work differently on different people, so you need to exhaust all of them before giving up.Similar threads
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