Venting Now or Later

[the witch’s lament]

I want it to be over. it's hard going through the loneliness and the actual physical pain I have from my years of abusing myself using drugs or self-harm. I have time and a method but I struggle with the thought of my discovery. the sooner I do it, in my mind, the better. but the soonest method is full suspension and using this I will be discovered by a loved one. I don't want to traumatize them the way I think that it would. the other method is SN in a hotel but even then I just lend that trauma to someone I don't even know. is there a lesser evil? is my worry in this rooted in something else? I am in so much mental and physical pain.

 

[Zyntkalla]

You can do the SN in a forest and the same thing with the hanging as well.

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

i'm sorry you're suffering so much.

like zyntkalla said, you can commit suicide in a forest if you don't wish to traumatize anyone. but if you want to do it in a hotel, i hear that big chain hotels are more equipped, for lack of a better word, to deal with suicides.