nothing more of me

[violetforever]

i just want to be dead and gone and thats the end of it. i dont want my family to have photos of me or post them anywhere. i dont want them to pretend they care and make it a big deal. i dont want them to talk about me. i want to have never existed or been related to these people. i wish i never met other people too. i need to finish up cleaning my room TODAY so ill be ready to ctb whenever. i cant take anymore. everything is gone and went so fast. i feel like ive lived through too much but at the same time nothing at all.