Nothing Is Going Well for Me, Moving the Date Up

[Celerity]

The only area of my life that isn't a complete shitshow is my physical health. All I have to be pissy about is a bad hip and some heartburn.

Career-wise? Fucking bonkers.
Financially? On the fritz.
Romantically? Dead-end.
Socially? No-man's land.

I'm really feeling like I'm at the end of my rope here. If I don't get some solutions going soon, I'm opting for the permanent one sooner than expected. I can't deal with this clusterfuck anymore. I hate to do this to my family, but there absolutely are people I wouldn't mind feeling guilty about my death. I feel hateful saying this, but I hope they feel fucking miserable.

 

[WornOutLife]

I'm really sorry to hear this, dear.
Sometimes, all the problems which are hard to solve love to show up at the same time.

Send you lots of good vibes, hugs and love.

Matt

 

[FuneralCry]

Life really can be torturous I get that, there is only so much misery one human can take. I know what it's like to be in a hopeless situation. I wish you the best.

 

[Sullun]

The only area of my life that isn't a complete shitshow is my physical health. All I have to be pissy about is a bad hip and some heartburn.

Career-wise? Fucking bonkers.
Financially? On the fritz.
Romantically? Dead-end.
Socially? No-man's land.

I'm really feeling like I'm at the end of my rope here. If I don't get some solutions going soon, I'm opting for the permanent one sooner than expected. I can't deal with this clusterfuck anymore. I hate to do this to my family, but there absolutely are people I wouldn't mind feeling guilty about my death. I feel hateful saying this, but I hope they feel fucking miserable.

How are you planning to do it?

 

[Celerity]

How are you planning to do it?

45 intraoral gunshot w/ hollow point bullets.

 

[Largeletters]

The only area of my life that isn't a complete shitshow is my physical health. All I have to be pissy about is a bad hip and some heartburn.

Career-wise? Fucking bonkers.
Financially? On the fritz.
Romantically? Dead-end.
Socially? No-man's land.

I'm really feeling like I'm at the end of my rope here. If I don't get some solutions going soon, I'm opting for the permanent one sooner than expected. I can't deal with this clusterfuck anymore. I hate to do this to my family, but there absolutely are people I wouldn't mind feeling guilty about my death. I feel hateful saying this, but I hope they feel fucking miserable.

I definitely understand hating doing it to your family, but also having people you wouldn't mind feeling guilty. I'm in that position too.

 

[motel rooms]

Wish there were something I could say to make you feel better that doesn't sound like a cliché...

 

[Bullit]

Wish there were something I could say to make you feel better that doesn't sound like a cliché...

You know,its always darkest before the dawn.

 

[motel rooms]

You know,its always darkest before the dawn.

Especially before the nuclear dawn

 

[heretogethelp]

The only area of my life that isn't a complete shitshow is my physical health. All I have to be pissy about is a bad hip and some heartburn.

Career-wise? Fucking bonkers.
Financially? On the fritz.
Romantically? Dead-end.
Socially? No-man's land.

I'm really feeling like I'm at the end of my rope here. If I don't get some solutions going soon, I'm opting for the permanent one sooner than expected. I can't deal with this clusterfuck anymore. I hate to do this to my family, but there absolutely are people I wouldn't mind feeling guilty about my death. I feel hateful saying this, but I hope they feel fucking miserable.

Technically, I could finish my masters and then train to be a teacher. But, I am so depressed that I can't be bothered and have no motivation :(

 

[the_final_countdown]

You can solve all those problems.

Health? Not so much.

So quick to throw your life away. So many opportunities to get out of hell.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

So many opportunities to get out of hell.

Boomer?

 

[Deleted member 8579]

You can solve all those problems.

How would you know? Are you going to help her?

So quick to throw your life away.

This rhetoric is informed by the false notion that life has any intrinsic value.

So many opportunities to get out of hell.

Do you have any concrete examples or is this just an empty phrase?

 

[motel rooms]

You can solve all those problems.

Health? Not so much.

So quick to throw your life away. So many opportunities to get out of hell.

Pretty insulting...

 

[Celerity]

You can solve all those problems.

Health? Not so much.

So quick to throw your life away. So many opportunities to get out of hell.

Why are you here? What is the purpose of leaving such a comment?

 

[Shadowgeist]

Sorry to hear that life is pushing you down on all fronts. I too have nothing going for me but my health right now. And everyday seems to get worse and worse, bringing me closer to ctb.

 

[Sullun]

45 intraoral gunshot w/ hollow point bullets.

Wow. I wish you all the best. That's simply not an option where I am.

 

[boc]

Don't make any rushed decisions if you're in a specifically bad spot at the moment. Give yourself time to think this through and make sure it's what you want. Wishing you peace either way.