Not long now

[Tattz66]

Hi everyone, I'm new to the group. You guys can call me M, I'm 27m and in the next couple days I'm going to CTB. I have lived all my life since I can remember with BPD, psychosis, autism and extreme paranoia. The world has just fucked me up. I've always been suicidal but I have a plan and once they arrive it will be time. I was jumping between decapitation by train and depressing my CNS using the correct medication but have decided I'm going to overdose on both Opiates and sleeping medication and anti pschotics, all of which cause CNS Depression. Hopefully leading up to the point of going unconscious I'm not too uncomfortable, I have done a trial with this method in the past and I was just high and then fell unconscious and woke up in the hospital so I'm pretty confident that it will be as painless as possible. That was much lower doses then what I'm going to do now and I didn't mix the Opiate and sleeping meds I did them in separate overdoses because I know once you mix them especially at real high doses it causes you to go into an extremely deep sleep and stop breathing.

A bit about me, I love tattoos I have loads, I had a family which got taken away from me due to my mental health because they thought I was a "risk" even though I would do everything to protect them. Im a bodybuilder and that has always been my hobby.

If anyone would like to chat in the next couple of days leading up to me leaving this earth then please feel free to message but do not try to talk me out of it because I have made my mind up.

Thanks

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

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[darksouls]

you are welcome

 

[Tattz66]

Why ODs Fail Miserably (A Guide)

There's still a lot of questions and inquiries about ODs, and people asking about what things may facilitate a successful attempt. Let's be clear, ODs are rarely fatal. Why? For a couple of reasons: (1) modern medications are designed to be very safe, as manufacturers aim to avoid deaths that...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Non-methods that should not be attempted

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It's more the mixing of the medications then the doses, don't get me wrong I'm going to be taking extremely high doses but I already have real bad sleep apnoea and my heart isn't the best so I'm confident in this method. If I had access to SN I would use that but don't even know where to look

 

[FuneralCry]

It really sounds like you've suffered so much, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[developic]

It's more the mixing of the medications then the doses, don't get me wrong I'm going to be taking extremely high doses but I already have real bad sleep apnoea and my heart isn't the best so I'm confident in this method. If I had access to SN I would use that but don't even know where to look

Barbiturates: Drugs like thiopental or pentobarbital are commonly used to induce unconsciousness. These barbiturates work by depressing the central nervous system, leading to a loss of consciousness. When administered in a high enough dose, they can cause respiratory depression and eventually cardiac arrest, leading to death

 

[Tattz66]

It really sounds like you've suffered so much, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.

If I haven't got my family then theres nothing else for me to be here for. I was keeping myself alive and dealing with the constant suffering for the sake of my daughter but now I have nothing and the pain is so bad I can't do this anymore its just torture and I hate going to sleep knowing I have to wake up with the feeling, I'm sad all the time like a real deep sadness that I've never felt before. It'll be over soon, thank you for your message

 

[Tattz66]

Barbiturates: Drugs like thiopental or pentobarbital are commonly used to induce unconsciousness. These barbiturates work by depressing the central nervous system, leading to a loss of consciousness. When administered in a high enough dose, they can cause respiratory depression and eventually cardiac arrest, leading to death

Where do i get them? I could add them to what I already have planned

 

[Feldsparc]

If I haven't got my family then theres nothing else for me to be here for. I was keeping myself alive and dealing with the constant suffering for the sake of my daughter but now I have nothing and the pain is so bad I can't do this anymore its just torture and I hate going to sleep knowing I have to wake up with the feeling, I'm sad all the time like a real deep sadness that I've never felt before. It'll be over soon, thank you for your message

Are you at peace or still here. I feel the same...no family no life and I want to just be gone

 

[PanaxMan]

Are you at peace or still here. I feel the same...no family no life and I want to just be gone

Same no family help besides a distant olde brother who I don't have the confidence that he would help me at all