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valerie | she/they | puppygirl
Jul 11, 2026
328
i really REALLY REALLY want to kill myself, because simply put, nobody loves me. i've tried so hard, but it's probably for the best. suicide is genuinely the best option for me. i hgave no idea how i'm going to do it, but i have to, i simply have to. i'm going to apologize to everyone, i'm going to kill myself, i'm going to do it, i just am. that's all there is. nobody really wants me around, and that's okay, because the problem is me, i'm too different for them, i can't be expected to love anybody, nor can i expect anybody to love me, so i'm going to fall back on jerking off like a pathetic girl
to cope with my anxieties. it's okay, i've been doing this for a year. literally a whole year i was doing this before i met anybody here on sasu lol, so i'm sure i'll survive.
 
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I’ll cross my heart, I’ll hope to die
Dec 9, 2022
546
i really REALLY REALLY want to kill myself, because simply put, nobody loves me. i've tried so hard, but it's probably for the best. suicide is genuinely the best option for me. i hgave no idea how i'm going to do it, but i have to, i simply have to. i'm going to apologize to everyone, i'm going to kill myself, i'm going to do it, i just am. that's all there is. nobody really wants me around, and that's okay, because the problem is me, i'm too different for them, i can't be expected to love anybody, nor can i expect anybody to love me, so i'm going to fall back on jerking off like a pathetic girl
to cope with my anxieties. it's okay, i've been doing this for a year. literally a whole year i was doing this before i met anybody here on sasu lol, so i'm sure i'll survive.
same. I don't want to live without love, intimacy, touch, someone else's presence who I love and who loves mine.

I've tried so hard to make people love me, to be lovable. maybe someone would have found me, and found me lovable. and I'd find them lovable. and attractive.

But it didn't happen, and now I'm sick and disabled. I don't even think I was capable of being attracted and attracting the right kind of person. just people who hurt me.
 
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Charly

Member
May 30, 2026
9
Life's so unfair. I have all the love i could desire and still desperately want to die, while others would be saved by a hug. I hug you, i really really wish i could do in real life (even though im a half hikikomori myself lol). You deserve love and warmth and understanding. Breaks my heart to see situations like this.
 
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sadbh—itstimetogo🤎

Arcanist
Apr 4, 2026
408
I am unloveable, romantically. I'm glad I don't have the desire to be intimate in any sense these days. Life is so much better not being attached to people like that. I hope the world moves in a direction where romantic love is not put on a pedestal. It's half just an evolutionary driver to procreate.
 

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