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c4di

c4di

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Oct 9, 2025
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anyone else literally unable to do it? all i want right now is to die, 100% set on it but there aren't any methods available to me, all that is available sucks. it feels extremely horrible that even suicide is actually not an option, it's making me go insane. i dont know what im going to do with my life honestly
 
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cakedog

cakedog

waiting for the respawn
Dec 13, 2025
139
felt like that for a long time but finally decided to go with hanging since i don't have a lot of options available
but having a gun or sn would be more comfy
 
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dale wilbur

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Dec 10, 2025
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maybe find a place to jump? don't wanna search? use google maps around where u live or smth
 
c4di

c4di

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Oct 9, 2025
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maybe find a place to jump? don't wanna search? use google maps around where u live or smth
whenever i go out i try to find buildings higher than 10 floors but there aren't much in my area, if there were any i probably cant access them
 
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dale wilbur

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Dec 10, 2025
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whenever i go out i try to find buildings higher than 10 floors but there aren't much in my area, if there were any i probably cant access them
then u either find a cliff or do the turkey exit bag method
 
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ilovenewyork

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Nov 16, 2025
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You don't want to rush a decision this big. How about taking a week off to cool down and relax and get a fresh perspective. It's Christmas, watch some movies and eat some candy and take it easy, treat yourself
 
c4di

c4di

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Oct 9, 2025
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You don't want to rush a decision this big. How about taking a week off to cool down and relax and get a fresh perspective. It's Christmas, watch some movies and eat some candy and take it easy, treat yourself
it isn't rushed ive seriously thought about it for two years
 
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ilovenewyork

Student
Nov 16, 2025
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Two years and you've taken no action. Because a part of you doesn't want this. How about chatting with a therapist? Maybe they can give you some perspective and insight. They help a lot of people
 
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c4di

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Oct 9, 2025
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Two years and you've taken no action. Because a part of you doesn't want this. How about chatting with a therapist? Maybe they can give you some perspective and insight. They help a lot of people
ive attempted multiple times. you're not helping anyone here by saying things like this btw
 
kuroshimi

kuroshimi

If you're not remembered, then you never existed.
Dec 1, 2025
282
Can somewhat relate to it. Always had some kind of death wish, but never thought about it carefully. Now I begin to preparing myself. And understood, that many methods are too complicated or simply impossible in my case.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I really understand, I always suffer from being trapped in this torturous, dreadful existence without the option to just never suffer again, I see so much cruelty in how we exist in this horrific world where suicide is seen as a crime with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what, all I want is to cease existing painlessly and finally be free from the mistake of existence, I hope you find peace.
 
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