i can see a path to get me out of the situation im in but i cant do it

[HappyPotato69]

like im stuck living w my family in canada, which supposedly is a good country to live in, and thats true. but it doesn't fit me at all bc i just wanna live a min wage life w nothing much to worry about and thats not a livable wage here, and it doesn't help im 18 w no experience and my family is the shittiest family to ever exist i hate them i hate them i hate them and they drive me so close to CTB. the thing is at the very least they give me a home to live in and i dont even take up any cost im so low maintenance. so if i do get a job i could save up for 4 months or so and leave but im never getting a job and im never getting out of this gutter and i still need to learn portuguese, voice train my voice, and do so much extra js to be able to live like anyone else, im js not committed to that at all and idk what to do except to ctb

 

[LongJacks]

like im stuck living w my family in canada, which supposedly is a good country to live in, and thats true. but it doesn't fit me at all bc i just wanna live a min wage life w nothing much to worry about and thats not a livable wage here, and it doesn't help im 18 w no experience and my family is the shittiest family to ever exist i hate them i hate them i hate them and they drive me so close to CTB. the thing is at the very least they give me a home to live in and i dont even take up any cost im so low maintenance. so if i do get a job i could save up for 4 months or so and leave but im never getting a job and im never getting out of this gutter and i still need to learn portuguese, voice train my voice, and do so much extra js to be able to live like anyone else, im js not committed to that at all and idk what to do except to ctb

I feel so trapped like yourself, if you can work and save up and eventually even get a bank loan you could buy a small apartment and leave, it would be wonderful but it's easier said than done ngl... I've tried this but I can't maintain a job without having panic attacks plus my depression and anxiety don't allow me to, I wake up like a zombie almost daily and even taking a shower is hard oof...

Listen if you do this and work don't think about the money because it will take away your motivation (Especially in this shit of an economy) think about that you can leave if you get a steady income

I wish you the best of luck and courage

 

[HappyPotato69]

Listen if you do this and work don't think about the money because it will take away your motivation (Especially in this shit of an economy) think about that you can leave if you get a steady income

I hope your situation gets better too but how is one supposed to not think about the money when its literally my only liberating factor

 

[LongJacks]

I hope your situation gets better too but how is one supposed to not think about the money when its literally my only liberating factor

Thanks! What I mean is if you get a minimum wage job you aren't going to get paid enough, and after you work off a whole month and enduring hardships (Sorry I'm using these words, I don't want to demotivate you) like karens and such, and get paid barely what you should get paid it will take away all of your motivation and you'll get more depressed

So for an end goal don't think about the monthly payment, think about the access to your future instead so it keeps you motivated

I'm speaking from experience... when I worked the first thing I said to myself is I have to wake up everyday, be a slave and endure this shit so I can get paid with pocket money... I don't want to demotivate you because if you push through it you can do this

Getting a job and working it is a bitch... it's slavery that's the reality of it, you barely get any dough for all that work...
Also you can apply for social housing after you get a job, if it's available in your country it should be if you would rather do that than getting a bank loan to buy a house or apartment... you will be in debt for the majority of your life, whilst social housing is better than renting