Help NO ONE can understand me, even myself. Everything i do seems like a lie.

[lovelulu]

I have autism, so sometimes I have a difficult time understanding tones and I misunderstand messages a lot. Stuff I repost or save are stuff I see from MY perspective. And the worst thing about that is that it seems like im lying straight out of my fucking ass. Everything I say seems like a lie because see stuff differently. It makes me seem stupid and retarded. I cant even understand myself. My fp hates me for this. All it does is make her split more because I can't understand some things and because of my perspective. Everything I do and say seems like a straight lie I can't even convince myself it sounds true even when it is. I need to fucking ctb already. No one can understand me. Im a walking piece of a lie.

 

[here_for_now]

I dont think your a walking piece of lie. It's easier said than done ofc but I encourage you to try to be less hard on yourself. I mean what you wrote in this thread wasn't a lie, it was an accurate description of your stuggles in life. Just because you have a harder time understanding social cues and stuff like that, it doesnt make you any less valuable than anyone else. You are deserving of people who treat you with patience, love, and understanding.

 

[peacebenow]

It all sounds so incredibly challenging. I am not in your head and I can tell you that I do not think you are lying. There is truth within you.