No more pain

[lanahelp]

I can't take any more. My depersonalization and visual processing issues from Lyme are so severe, I just want to die. Tonight. Not sure why to keep fighting. Lost everything.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are in so much pain. I can imagine it must be unbearable to be suffering so much. Life is so cruel and unfair. I know that it is hard to carry on when you cannot take anymore. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[MikeDeross82]

Depersonalization is the worst. When you lost yourself you lost everything

 

[Crazy4u]

Lyme disease is a serious illness. You didn't write much but I can feel the pain in what you wrote. I wish you find relief from your suffering

 

[lanahelp]

Lyme disease is a serious illness. You didn't write much but I can feel the pain in what you wrote. I wish you find relief from your suffering

Thank you. I was a professor and executive. Happy and balanced. I lost everything, especially my connection to a self and reality. I was once so vital and full of life. I didn't believe I Was sick. Nor did my family or medical community. It's been 5 years. I fought. I've never had an attempt but have SN coming soon and need to go. The pain outweighs my strength to fight on as well as my concern over loved ones' reactions. I'm a constant burden and source of negativity when I used to be a sunshine. I want peace. I'm terrified to do. As I have Buddhist beliefs. Living hurts.