No money or resources

[SickSadSlave]

What are my options. I literally have no money (only a few coins) so I can't buy anything. I'm in physical pain and have basically been bedridden for the last week. My mental health has gotten worse and there are things going on in my life that I'd rather not discuss but are all good reasons to ctb. I just need to know how. I tried cutting but si didn't let me cut deep. I wanted to do a hot car (Florida) but was advised that it's not a good idea. I have hydroxyzine 50mg, about 25 pills. Amitriptyline 10mg, about 100 pills. And that's it. I'm not a shoplifter so that's off the table and I'm living in a small apartment full of people so I can't do anything inside the apartment

 

[befree]

I cheap method is the carotid method witth tourniquet (amazon US$12,-).

 

[outrider567]

What are my options. I literally have no money (only a few coins) so I can't buy anything. I'm in physical pain and have basically been bedridden for the last week. My mental health has gotten worse and there are things going on in my life that I'd rather not discuss but are all good reasons to ctb. I just need to know how. I tried cutting but si didn't let me cut deep. I wanted to do a hot car (Florida) but was advised that it's not a good idea. I have hydroxyzine 50mg, about 25 pills. Amitriptyline 10mg, about 100 pills. And that's it. I'm not a shoplifter so that's off the table and I'm living in a small apartment full of people so I can't do anything inside the apartment

Sorry to hear this, few options indeed--and any jump options are limited since Florida isn't known for cliffs or mountains--and I don't know any high bridges in Florida aside from the Tampa Skyway bridge

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

It's not the most pleasant, but drowning is free. And Florida has lots of water.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand having limited access to methods and I'm sorry that you are in this situation. This life really is so cruel. A peaceful exit from this life should be a human right. For me personally, I am always thinking about hanging and drowning as those methods are easily accessible for me, but yet they both sound horrible and hanging scares me as it sounds risky. Everyday I wish that ctb is easier. All that anyone can do is make use of the ctb resources section. I hope that you find freedom from your suffering.

 

[tilsleepcomes]

I'm on a small budget, too. Hard to find options for a peaceful and happy exit like some of the common ones people post about. I seen the SN method could cost me upwards of a thousand bucks, which is exceedingly hard and would take lots of time for me to assemble.

Going with cheaper, sketchier methods, I almost died testing things and was almost hospitalized against my will. I ended up having my materials confiscated. Back to square one.

Other than gruesome or unreliable methods, which I recommend against after everything Ive read, it's hard to find a solution without some money.

 

[hellispink]

I suggest you check the sections in the sticky threads. There is different type of information there.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I seen the SN method could cost me upwards of a thousand bucks, which is exceedingly hard and would take lots of time for me to assemble.

I think your confusing SN with N. SN can be purchased for well less than $100.

 

[tilsleepcomes]

I think your confusing SN with N. SN can be purchased for well less than $100.

Oh dang, you're right. My bad. Thank you for catching that, and also letting me know it is so cheap.

Even 100 dollars may be too hard for some. I'm on a fixed income currently and I'm having to go without in order to prep my kit. But it is certainly more doable than I thought.

N does seem to be the top choice for those who can get it. It is a shame it is so much and no guarantee of it arriving due to customs and stuff. I think I'd be very upset if I scrimped and saved to get it and then it got confiscated.

SN is something I have to research more if it is that cheap. I wonder if I could use it in conjunction with F somehow. I'd worry I'd get sick and already be comatose and not able to ingest a backup glass. Or I could wait for F until I'm feeling SN kick in.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Oh dang, you're right. My bad. Thank you for catching that, and also letting me know it is so cheap.

Even 100 dollars may be too hard for some. I'm on a fixed income currently and I'm having to go without in order to prep my kit. But it is certainly more doable than I thought.

N does seem to be the top choice for those who can get it. It is a shame it is so much and no guarantee of it arriving due to customs and stuff. I think I'd be very upset if I scrimped and saved to get it and then it got confiscated.

SN is something I have to research more if it is that cheap. I wonder if I could use it in conjunction with F somehow. I'd worry I'd get sick and already be comatose and not able to ingest a backup glass. Or I could wait for F until I'm feeling SN kick in.

Is F = Fen***yl? If so, can't F work on it's own for ctb? As long as you're not found and revived, I mean?

 

[tilsleepcomes]

Is F = Fen***yl? If so, can't F work on it's own for ctb? As long as you're not found and revived, I mean?

It can certainly work on its own. I just want to be sure I don't wake up a vegetable when I do CTB. Just in case it wasn't what I paid for, or I get found or something goes wrong.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

It can certainly work on its own. I just want to be sure I don't wake up a vegetable when I do CTB. Just in case it wasn't what I paid for, or I get found or something goes wrong.

Fair enough I suppose. You could test it, though, right, and make sure it's good enough? Even if using both methods, I'd make damn sure that I'm not found for quite some time if I were you. Being found is a large contributor to many failed suicide attempts by any method.

 

[tilsleepcomes]

Fair enough I suppose. You could test it, though, right, and make sure it's good enough? Even if using both methods, I'd make damn sure that I'm not found for quite some time if I were you. Being found is a large contributor to many failed suicide attempts by any method.

Yeah I tested my first batch, ODed on 0.05 grams, and had it confiscated by the cops who attended with the ambulance.

Hearing about what happened to me when I ODed gave me some things to consider when I do it. I flopped around convulsing and made lots of weird noise.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Yeah I tested my first batch, ODed on 0.05 grams, and had it confiscated by the cops who attended with the ambulance.

Hearing about what happened to me when I ODed gave me some things to consider when I do it. I flopped around convulsing and made lots of weird noise.

A failed attempt can have the effect of forcing improvement to plans.

 

[befree]

Is F = Fen***yl? If so, can't F work on it's own for ctb? As long as you're not found and revived, I mean?

It can work. But better use a combination or Fentanyl (patches) and Oxycodon.

 

[tilsleepcomes]

It can work. But better use a combination or Fentanyl (patches) and Oxycodon.

I'm going to use a combo of F with other CNS depressants.

Why do you recommend Oxycodone with the F? Does it make it less scary to already be under Oxy when you take the F? Would it work with the long release Oxy tabs they prescribe these days?

 

[befree]

The guide I have recommends a combo of F.+Oxy. I don´t think it´s easy to get a prescription.