amechanirl
ame-chan
- Aug 6, 2026
- 3
i guess this is an introduction post.
18 years i lived through multiple types of abuse spanning the entirety. i was alienated and cast off by my peers during this time as well. you can imagine this did not bode well for a young psyche. i have been having psychotic and depressive symptoms since the age of 7.
during a recent intake appointment at a psychiatrist, he decided id been suffering from borderline personality disorder, most likely since adolesence (im 24 now). ive been in therapy for 10 years, and my suicidal ideations and attempts have never ceased. ive recently, in the past 2 years given life a real chance, and been spit in the face in return
recently, my life has culminated in me deciding to CTB, ultimately until i succeed. i've been lurking for a long time here, i wanted to make a post to at least tell somebody that i feel this way. i don't have anyone else.
18 years i lived through multiple types of abuse spanning the entirety. i was alienated and cast off by my peers during this time as well. you can imagine this did not bode well for a young psyche. i have been having psychotic and depressive symptoms since the age of 7.
during a recent intake appointment at a psychiatrist, he decided id been suffering from borderline personality disorder, most likely since adolesence (im 24 now). ive been in therapy for 10 years, and my suicidal ideations and attempts have never ceased. ive recently, in the past 2 years given life a real chance, and been spit in the face in return
recently, my life has culminated in me deciding to CTB, ultimately until i succeed. i've been lurking for a long time here, i wanted to make a post to at least tell somebody that i feel this way. i don't have anyone else.