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[notenough86]

I have been a member for a few months. For whatever reason having this forum is comforting. It makes me feel like I am not going crazy. I have not set a date or picked a method but I am soaking all this info in like a sponge. I feel less panicked with options.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that it can be a comfort having the option of a way to leave this world. Feeling like you are trapped in this world can be so dreadful. I'm sorry for whatever has brought you to the point of wanting ctb and I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

 

[FireFox]

Welcome to the forum :)

I find this fourm as the one true place where I am free to express myself without being judged. In the real world people judge me when I open about my anxieties and all the things troubling me.

I am 25 years old and live in the United Kingdom. I love dystopian fiction genre, political drama movies, I love being outside visiting parks and museums and national attractions. I am massive lover of hemp tea :)

Tell us a little bit about yourself as a person

 

[Pain In The Ass]

I have been a member for a few months. For whatever reason having this forum is comforting. It makes me feel like I am not going crazy. I have not set a date or picked a method but I am soaking all this info in like a sponge. I feel less panicked with options.

having options is comforting

 

[notenough86]

I am 36. Live in the states. I work in the medical field. My husband knows how much I struggle. I probably wouldn't be alive now if it wasn't for him. I was raised in a very emotionally abusive home. I was trained to only care about my father. Anyone else was quickly chased off. My father didn't speak to me for 3 months leading up to my wedding and the last 7 years making me feel like shit for having a life. I went to a psych hospital and was not admitted. I had to leave my phone in my car. I came back to my car to see father had called me 8 times. I instantly felt dread. I called him back and just couldn't keep the mask on and told him how bad off I am. Fortunately that helped things a little. I feel I have ran out of time to have children and scared of passing bad genes onto a life that did not ask to be here. My plan for the longest time was to wait until both my parents were dead and then to die also. I know I am the cause of 99.9% of my anxieties. It is just a struggle to wade through all that bullshit. It is so hard trying to heal. It is exhausting. I'm sure at my funeral everyone will say...she was wonderful, dependable and smart. Little do they know I sit on my house in the dark and just daydream a out nothingness. It would shock the people around me if they could peek into to my mind