never wake up

[tfht98]

Why can't I just fall a sleep and never wake up..
Realizing I woke up in the morning and there will be another day feeling like this makes me so depressed

 

[LifeHasNoOptIn]

Indeed, this is my ultimate dream and I suspect many others here.

 

[Lost Magic]

oh my that has always been my death of choice. I thought taking pills, while my heart was weaker and being stick thin would have ended me in my sleep. That was some years ago. Now, I am very lucky to have N, so now I can die in my sleep. So, I feel blessed in a way.

 

[tfht98]

Yea for sure! I'm new here it feels good to finally share my thoughts with others.
Finally able to talk to people who really understand you instead of people that only react with solutions and it doesn't matter how many times you've said you don't want to try anymore, my life is over and I fully accepted it, I just want peace, I can no longer live with myself etc.
They still trying to convince you and keep talking about future

oh my that has always been my death of choice. I thought taking pills, while my heart was weaker and being stick thin wold have ended me in my sleep. That was some years ago. Now, I am very lucky to have N, so now I can die in my sleep. So, I feel blessed in a way.

I only have antipsychotica .. Im scared it will not kill me. Trying to get sodium azide but it's really hard to get here..

 

[Lost Magic]

Yea for sure! I'm new here it feels good to finally share my thoughts with others.
Finally able to talk to people who really understand you instead of people that only react with solutions and it doesn't matter how many times you've said you don't want to try anymore, my life is over and I fully accepted it, I just want peace, I can no longer live with myself etc.
They still trying to convince you and keep talking about future

I only have antipsychotica .. Im scared it will not kill me. Trying to get sodium azide but it's really hard to get here..

just keep trying to get sodium Nitrite or sodium Azide. Have you tried Alibaba for Nitrite?

 

[tfht98]

oh my that has always been my death of choice. I thought taking pills, while my heart was weaker and being stick thin would have ended me in my sleep. That was some years ago. Now, I am very lucky to have N, so now I can die in my sleep. So, I feel blessed in a way.

I'm happy for you! I wish we would have the right to decide for ourselves when it's our time and can die peacefull without all the struggles we got now. It's so unfair

 

[ClownMe]

That would be a dream (pardon the pun).

There's nothing worse than waking up and realising you're still here.

 

[tfht98]

That would be a dream (pardon the pun).

There's nothing worse than waking up and realising you're still here.

i know it's unrealistic aha unfortunatelly just sharing thoughts

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Why can't I just fall a sleep and never wake up..
Realizing I woke up in the morning and there will be another day feeling like this makes me so depressed

It's the worst

 

[FuneralCry]

I feel the same way, I just want to be gone without having to go through the process of ctb, to me it sounds so peaceful to fall asleep and never wake, death is the end to all my meaningless suffering and nothing can hurt me when I am dead. I am tired of waking up to the same miserable existence.

 

[crackeddopen]

I desperately wish I had N so I could sleep peacefully and never wake up…