Help Need to write an apology letter to my abuser

[FloatingJellyfish]

Trying to keep this short.
Traumatised dog barked at Mother.
Mother took a wood garlic grinder thingy and run after the dog.
I took the wood thingy off her hands cause don't hurt my dog.
She goes angry Starts attacking me.
Me takes the wood thingy off her again.
She Starts hitting me and hurtig me.
Saying she has no fear Breaking my arm.
Hurts me alot.
I managed to get her off me.
She tries to get my phone wanting to take it away from me.
Reason: I need punishment.
Actual reason: She has been frustrated cause my sis moving out and I was watching a show on my phone with headphones instead of giving her all my attention.
Now she twisting the story.
Saying she wanted to take away my phone cause the dog was trying to bite her and i started to fight her because im spoiled.
I'm not alowed to get out and im locked in.
Dog is save.
All my outside contacts and possibility to call police or anything out the window cause she took my phone.
(Actually wanted to isolate me completely threatening to take away the dog and all means of contact and transportation)
Saying me "hitting" her even though she said she could kill me, was a sin against god cause parents are on the high hierarchy.
Now im forced to write a well researche paper on why everything I did today was wrong after her false version of events or I don't get autonomy back.
(I'm writing this on my laptop i was alowed to use cause the research thing.
I'm logically not able to do this cause im mentally completely destroyed by the situation.
Especially since my sister agreed with me but said to my mother that she was right.
If anyone can help me in some regards writing that i would be greatful.
Even just an idea would be good.
PS: she is a psychologist and knows ai made texts too well I genuinely need a genuine texts even though im clearly not at all
PPS: she is faking injuries now meanwhile im all marked up red but says "I don't want you to feel guilty if my organ is combusting now because off you"
Also I can't call cps im an adult and can't move out cause she wont allow me to get a job and i am chronically ill on top of that.
Trying to make money online slowly wont work without access to my bank account which i need my phone for.

If someone can help me id be very greatful

 

[Manfrotto99]

You have a laptop. Can't you notify police and friends on your laptop?

 

[Kali_Yuga13]

I hope you escape your mother. If you have to shmooze her with an apology letter to buy some time so be it but you should be making a permanent escape plan.

 

[WhiskeySolstice]

Goodness I hope things things get better for you, I'm sorry you have to write that letter.
Do you perhaps think you'd have access to a helpful shelter? Or maybe a charity organisation could give you some monetary support? In either case, I really wish you the best. I also wish I had better advice for ya :/

 

[Manfrotto99]

I sent you a personal letter. Change it to suit your style and situation. I know it sounds like your giving into the lies that your mum wants to hear, but I just hope it helps to bide you some time to settle down and get your head around things so you can makes plans. Your safety is what's important.

 

[FloatingJellyfish]

I hope you escape your mother. If you have to shmooze her with an apology letter to buy some time so be it but you should be making a permanent escape plan.

Im making an escape Plan it's a bit difficult in my situation due to being chronically ill and my country not having a working support system.

Goodness I hope things things get better for you, I'm sorry you have to write that letter.
Do you perhaps think you'd have access to a helpful shelter? Or maybe a charity organisation could give you some monetary support? In either case, I really wish you the best. I also wish I had better advice for ya :/

Wish I could but my country doesn't have a working system. Shelters are full and they keep getting closed. Charity organisations here are almost impossible to get. Best way is trying to get my card and phone back and somehow trying to make money without her knowing and moving away once I have enough saved up. Thank you either way I had no one to talk to since yesterday it helps ppl responding to my comment

You have a laptop. Can't you notify police and friends on your laptop?

Notified 1 friend but he can't help me. Police is difficult she works for the police as a psychologist if she tells them her twisted story they'll put my dog to sleep and me in confinedment.

I sent you a personal letter. Change it to suit your style and situation. I know it sounds like your giving into the lies that your mum wants to hear, but I just hope it helps to bide you some time to settle down and get your head around things so you can makes plans. Your safety is what's important.

Thank you a lot I for some reason can't open it I'll try later again but I thank you very very much