Need Support to Survive

[StarryStarry]

They come today to pick up 30 years worth of memories. 30 years of my life - which means nothing. I'm so depressed it hurts physically. Please take this pain away. Please. Maybe I'll get in the car and drive to where my little girl is - not to the "new job." I'll take Sweet Pea with me in the hopes of finding her a home there. If not, maybe I should take her with me. It will be painless. I can't think straight. My mind is so cloudy. I want someone to save me, but there is no one and I know that. I want someone to hold me and tell me that everything will be ok, but there is no one. I am alone in life and in death. God, I can't stand this pain anymore. I want to die. I should go home to be with my little girl. No more pain, tears, loneliness. Nothingness. Just forever sleep ......... Maybe it's time. Life will not get better for me, I'm just waiting to die.

 

[rationaltake]

Pleaase do not harm your child if that is what you are thinking about.

Sweet Pea is a dear little cat I think.

 

[FuneralCry]

Forever sleep is all that I want as well, I want to be free from all pain. I know that it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[StarryStarry]

Sweet Pea is a dear little cat I think.

Sweet Pea is my cat and I would NEVER harm her or a child - now there are some adults I wouldn't mind harming. I won't even take offense that you thought I could actually huyrt a child. I'll let it slide. Thank you Rationaltake for defending me.

 

[rationaltake]

So sorry @StarryStarry that you're suffering like this. Life can be hell.