Need advice on my method, I want it to be lethal and not have a chance to survive

[CockatielLover]

I have a 90 day supply of proponolol 10mg, 90 day supply of prozasin, clonazepam 3 pills (I would take them to alleviate anxiety or thoughts before taking these beta blockers)
What are your thoughts, will this condition be likely to kill me. I want to be free from my suffering. I was raped and all my friends hate me, my best friend had an argument with me and didn't try and fix anything. I have avoidant personality disorder and cptsd from being raped and sexually abused repeatedly online and in person or being abused by my parents for my autism. I do not want to live this Life, I do not want to come out of the other side. I want it to end. I cannot come to terms with people in the world being so cruel and rotten, and I'm over my job. I don't want to work and SSI will likely deny me anyway. Cost of living is unsustainable, this is not a quality of life I want to have. Yes I've tried therapy and inpatient, nothing works. I wonder if other people feel this way

 

[hdead]

I'm sorry to hear what you've been through and I truly get that you're desperate to end it all and become free from it.. Sadly though, I think the odds are against you and I'd advise against going this route, it will likely do you more physical harm and make your time here worse than it is. I'd suggest you read around on the forum, especially the Methods thread, to see what people have experienced and you can move on from there.

I hope you can gather some patience and power to do research on this, because what we're talking about is quite serious. All the best to you. And I really do hope things can take a turn for the better for you.

 

[ZwartHartje]

Sadly I have to agree with hdead, there's a post on here with a table listing what insane amounts it would take for various medications to reach a lethal dose, literally hundreds, more often thousands or ten-thousands of pills: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/why-ods-fail-miserably-a-guide.181394/

So sorry about what you're going through, but please take your time and find a better, safer way. All the best to you!