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Stopthepain

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Jul 11, 2021
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Hey guys, cause of my chronich illness that is destroying my nervous system brain and body i prepared myself last year for the worst case. Weed helped me for some months to Deal with the pain.. now it has a paradox effect.. just insanity paranoia and anxiety.. that was.the only Thing that kept me alive the last 3 months.. now it messed the rest up.. i am paralyted in a scary hell.. every sec is torture.. just stopint weed and to back to my disabled isolated hell is no Option anymore.. i thought this illnes everyday sucidial wisjing to die with no life for 3.5 years.. enough is enough.. i have to check out for my own good as long as i have still a bit control over me and not get tourmented in a mental Hospital tho they cant cure me.. just lock me in. I have to protect my soul. This life is inhuman, i am 26 and there is no future just pain. I like life as a healthy Person rly much that is why i kept fighting for so.long even tho i knew it is hopless for a long long time.
Is N still good after 8 months? It was cool stored and no Light exposure and sealed.

I am in so much pain. Is this real life? I just feels like hell.
 
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GentleJerk

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Dec 14, 2021
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Yes.

Only if it looks cloudy / milky, then you might need new N.

What you are going through sounds really rough, I'm sorry this is happening to you, at such a young age too. I'm wishing you all the very best.
 
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I'm sorry that you had to go through all this, I think everything is fine with your N, with proper storage, its shelf life is 20 years
 
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