My whole life flashed over me while I was high

[Lost Magic]

One night when I was on weed my whole life went through my mind like reels of a movie. I relived everything right up until my current time. It was both joyous and enormously painful. I have been anxious for a while about dying but now I am more at peace and content with it. Since my parent's and uncle's death, I struggle with great sorrow everyday. Society is not kind to me now and I just feel lost and lonely. I really tried to keep moving forward but my mental struggles are just too great and the past haunts me. Grief and depression can drive you crazy and I don't want to end up in mental hospital. I am looking forward to death and I think I am ready soon. Thanks for listening. Peace.

 

[Meditation guide]

One night when I was on weed my whole life went through my mind like reels of a movie. I relived everything right up until my current time. It was both joyous and enormously painful. I have been anxious for a while about dying but now I am more at peace and content with it. Since my parent's and uncle's death, I struggle with great sorrow everyday. Society is not kind to me now and I just feel lost and lonely. I really tried to keep moving forward but my mental struggles are just too great and the past haunts me. Grief and depression can drive you crazy and I don't want to end up in mental hospital. I am looking forward to death and I think I am ready soon. Thanks for listening. Peace.

I'm so sorry you feel this bad. I wish I could help somehow but this feels so helpless, just typing words to you. I feel similar to what you described and I'm sure lots of us can sympathize with your feelings. I'm glad you shared your feelings with us. My hope is that you find some peace in whatever way you can. Sending hugs.

 

[BeyondGoodNEvil]

idk why but using drugs like this always gives me a reality check

 

[Lost Magic]

idk why but using drugs like this always gives me a reality check

I don't normally do drugs so yeah it as eye opening for me.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I'm sorry life has led you in this direction. I hope you find peace

 

[Celerity]

That's an interesting experience. I'm glad for you. I don't want to smoke due to asthma, and edibles make me anxious.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing can be painful. I think over time many people begin to feel at peace with dying after going through prolonged suffering. They just want to escape from life. Wishing you peace.