Help my SN protocol, thoughts? doing it tonight.

[kosameAmagai]

current time for me is 3pm

my last meal was around 20 hours ago, i will not eat anything anymore, and i plan to stop drinking water after 9pm.

00:15 - 30mg metoclopramide
2.5g dypirone monohydrate
400mg propanolol
24mg ondansetron
150mg promethazine
100mg trazodone
40mg xanax

i plan to take them all at the same time, orally, with few water as possible.

20 minutes after taking it i plan to prepare my sn drink, just in case i get too sleepy cause of the medications to not mess it up, will dissolve 25g (97%) on 200ml water. (wonder if leaving the sn drink already mixed and open in the air for 40 minutes would affect it in anyway?)

01:00 drink it, sit down, and just listen to music till i pass out.

my body will probably be found by my parents around 6 hours after i ingested it.

is there anything i should be concerned about? any meds i should take first or later? is the dosage good?

that is probably gonna be my last post here :), honestly im a bit scared it wont work and i will be put into a coma, or sent to a psych ward. if i dont reply to this post in a week you can assume it worked and i am dead.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Way too much water, why? Can't use that much.

 

[kosameAmagai]

Way too much water, why? Can't use that much.

thanks for pointing it out ! :) , i will try to keep adding as little water as possible (around 25ml) until i can totally dissolve the SN, the issue i had testing was that there were a lot of SN crystals left until i added 200ml water

 

[monotine]

i wish you well. hope you get the peace you long for

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

They also say not to fast for much over the recommended 8 hours (because it causes an excess of stomach acid, I can't tell you how many times I've read that) but this is your plan & you sound very determined, so, for you, a 30 hour fast it is.

 

[Carrot]

Looking at stuff like this makes me scared to do with with 12h fasting + SN only.

Amount of water seems lower than usual compared to what I read in some guide. There was a table out there somewhere.

 

[Macedonian1987]

Dissolving 25g in 200ml will make the urge for you to vomit much stronger compared when using 50ml water. If the extremely salty taste bothers you too much you could I guess dissolve it into 70ml water max.

 

[darksouls]

good luck, I hope you find the peace you desire

 

[hevnsfall]

40 mg of xan can knock out a horse.

I suggest setting up a timeframe so you will not lose consciousness and not accidentally pass out before ingesting the sn

 

[kosameAmagai]

thanks for the replies everyone ! <3 i will be taking it all into account especially the water amount.

i will probably use sasu until 11pm my time (6 more hours) so feel free to ask me anything too if you want !

after that i will probably log out and format everything i have, especially because forensics will very likely be involved after and i dont want them to think sasu had any involvement in my decision nor draw more attention to sasu like it has happened before.

40 mg of xan can knock out a horse.

I suggest setting up a timeframe so you will not lose consciousness and not accidentally pass out before ingesting the sn

i have a VERY high benzo tolerance (im currently on 3 mg alprazolam a day), i was more worried about the promethazine doing it actually lol, i will probably make my drink before taking the meds them, just in case i get too sleepy! thanks for the concern <3

 

[matsuzaka]

sad to see another kosame fan go, i wish you luck i hope it all goes well

may tonight be a peaceful night for you, i will keep you in my thoughts

 

[cantthinkofusername]

i wish you luck and hope you can find peace. all will be well.

 

[hevnsfall]

Did you put all your affairs in order? Are you comfy?

I wish you the very best and i hope you will find your peace

 

[kosameAmagai]

Did you put all your affairs in order? Are you comfy?

I wish you the very best and i hope you will find your peace

i dont really have anything to put in order since i am disabled (autism) and i basically dont own anything :/, i have closed my bank accounts already except for one but thats pretty much it

as for comfy i guess so, im more of tired/bored if anything, which is kinda surprising i thought i was gonna be extremely anxious, but no :p, i spent the day with my parents and trying to play with my dog but he was very lethargic today and didn't want to play much :/

my stomach is kinda burning (which i guess its because the build up of acid) so i think fasting for 30 hours was not a good idea should have done 16 max

thank you for the kind words <3 i wish the same for you :)

 

[hevnsfall]

Do you have any antiacids around the house? A double recommended dose is actually very useful!

Even baking soda helps too. A teaspoon mixed in 100 ml of water neutralizes the acid buildup and soothes the tummy.

 

[kosameAmagai]

Do you have any antiacids around the house? A double recommended dose is actually very useful!

Even baking soda helps too. A teaspoon mixed in 100 ml of water neutralizes the acid buildup and soothes the tummy.

unfortunately no :c, i should have bought one, but all in all i just want this to end, painful or not, i just cant take being alive anymore so i dont mind being uncomfortable for a short moment if that means eternal peace :)

 

[hevnsfall]

How long until you will start?

 

[kosameAmagai]

How long until you will start?

uhh, should be in 2 hours if everyone that i live with is asleep, but like i said i wont document it for the safety of the website, whenever someone finds my body its very likely forensics will be called and search everything on my devices, room, etc

 

[hevnsfall]

Good luck and i wish you will find your peace

 

[Dawnfang]

thanks for pointing it out ! :) , i will try to keep adding as little water as possible (around 25ml) until i can totally dissolve the SN, the issue i had testing was that there were a lot of SN crystals left until i added 200ml water

Try mixing with hot water. It'll have 20 mins to cool either way.

May you find your peace <3 safe travels

 

[kosameAmagai]

I hope everyone in this website can find happiness and peace, i am now logging out to never be seen again if everything goes well :). thanks everyone for the kind messages !

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Looking at stuff like this makes me scared to do with with 12h fasting + SN only.

Amount of water seems lower than usual compared to what I read in some guide. There was a table out there somewhere.

 

[Carrot]

Oh I misremembered then. Thought it was 380 ml but it's 38.

 

[cowlover1252]

good luck

 

[kosameAmagai]

UPDATE: it went COMPLETELY WRONG ! :C,

i basically blacked out around 25-30 mins after taking all meds, before drinking the SN but with it already mixed and ready to drink, i wasnt laying down, i was listening to music on blast standing up on my mattress with my headphones, i have no clue or memories of how it happened.

i was basically in a coma for around 18 hours

my family found me unconscious, they attempted to wake me up with everything, i was brought into the hospital, given methylene blue ( even though i have never ingested the SN) because my family saw the SN package and thought it was the reason.

i was completely unconscious for the whole time, they changed my clothes, give me methylene blue, did a blood test, etc. and i basically felt nothing, i just woke up completely dazed, confused and once i realized i was still alive i got pretty angry, and well, things went south.

i will get a psych evaluation and get the answer if i will be sent to a psych ward or not (very likely will given the circumstances), though i spent 40 days on a psych ward from december to january this year so i guess there is a chance i wont be sent.

all in all i am extremely angry with myself, for not testing first how sleepy i would get with promethazine, my family told me they were trying to open my eyes, shaking my body, etc and i was basically dead, 0 response.

this is the only regret i have, not testing the auxiliary meds beforehand.

also i think of the conclusion that the sedatives makes it way more peaceful, so if you can get your hands on one, dont hesitate

i will 100% do it again, once im out of here/ psych ward ( which i really hope i dont get sent to, because if i do i would guess it will be 50 days minimum).

just the thought that i will have to live (under extremely supervision) for a few more months at minimum is really weighing on me. I JUST WANNA DIE AND FIND PEACE, IM NOT HARMING ANYONE, I JUST CANT BEAR THIS WORLD ANYMORE :(.

well this was my rant. I am feeling like an absolute failure right now.

TL;DR - if you plan to do it with any sedatives, make sure to test how potent they can be before carrying out the act. :(


peace everyone , i hope some day all of us can find some sort of happiness or comfort somewhere :(.

 

[pagalparinda]

Mixing BZD potentiate the affect of other. If BZD A have effect X on you, and BZD B have effect Y on you, Just mixing it will give you 2-3 X and 2-3 Y. So never to mix it.

 

[Carrot]

Sorry to hear that, we appreciate the update.

it's a shame people aren't allowed to die if they wish to do so.

 

[matsuzaka]

UPDATE: it went COMPLETELY WRONG ! :C,

i basically blacked out around 25-30 mins after taking all meds, before drinking the SN but with it already mixed and ready to drink, i wasnt laying down, i was listening to music on blast standing up on my mattress with my headphones, i have no clue or memories of how it happened.

i was basically in a coma for around 18 hours

my family found me unconscious, they attempted to wake me up with everything, i was brought into the hospital, given methylene blue ( even though i have never ingested the SN) because my family saw the SN package and thought it was the reason.

i was completely unconscious for the whole time, they changed my clothes, give me methylene blue, did a blood test, etc. and i basically felt nothing, i just woke up completely dazed, confused and once i realized i was still alive i got pretty angry, and well, things went south.

i will get a psych evaluation and get the answer if i will be sent to a psych ward or not (very likely will given the circumstances), though i spent 40 days on a psych ward from december to january this year so i guess there is a chance i wont be sent.

all in all i am extremely angry with myself, for not testing first how sleepy i would get with promethazine, my family told me they were trying to open my eyes, shaking my body, etc and i was basically dead, 0 response.

this is the only regret i have, not testing the auxiliary meds beforehand.

also i think of the conclusion that the sedatives makes it way more peaceful, so if you can get your hands on one, dont hesitate

i will 100% do it again, once im out of here/ psych ward ( which i really hope i dont get sent to, because if i do i would guess it will be 50 days minimum).

just the thought that i will have to live (under extremely supervision) for a few more months at minimum is really weighing on me. I JUST WANNA DIE AND FIND PEACE, IM NOT HARMING ANYONE, I JUST CANT BEAR THIS WORLD ANYMORE :(.

well this was my rant. I am feeling like an absolute failure right now.

TL;DR - if you plan to do it with any sedatives, make sure to test how potent they can be before carrying out the act. :(


peace everyone , i hope some day all of us can find some sort of happiness or comfort somewhere :(.

aww im sorry it turned out like this~ :(( ive heard a few stories of people taking sedatives and passing out before ingesting sn but i didn't realize how quickly you get sleepy~ >~<

either way im sure you've had a really stressful few days, i hope you can find at least some comfort in your last few months/days~ ^~^ i wish you happiness~!

 

[ApotheosisOfJ]

Really sorry it went south for you. I'll definitely take this as a word of warning for doing a test run with my benzos before the real deal.

I hope you're able to find peace soon

 

[TimeTraveling4]

Sorry to hear it failed, that 40 mg of Xanax really knocked you out.