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TomIsNotMyName

TomIsNotMyName

Existence is suffering
May 3, 2023
80
I feel light headed and my heart is racing faster now.. Oh God please make it stop
 
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Bimbosqualo

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Mar 19, 2025
97
How are you doing now? I hope you don't have any lasting symptoms.🤗🤗🤗
 
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Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
631
You took only 3 tiny sips from 25g SN disolved in 50ml of water?
 
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Stargazer100

no nonsense
May 25, 2021
165
'You need to reply to this thread in order to see this content.' forum weirdness
 
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amputatedandalone

Member
Jan 4, 2026
33
Hoping you're doing as well as you want to be. Replying to see what may be in store for myself.

I am guessing that chugging the whole thing at once is key to losing consciousness in 10-15 minutes. Taking it sip by sip will just prolong the unpleasant effects.
 
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Stargazer100

no nonsense
May 25, 2021
165
was it difficult to swallow the water with sn in it? Was the taste too bad too drink more?
Did you alert anyone? Why did you not if you wanted to stop? Just curious about it all hope you don't mind that I ask
 
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idontknowwhatiam

Experienced
Sep 10, 2025
201
I'm planning to CTB on January 23 using SN, without antiemetics.

The time of my CTB may be delayed by 2-3 hours, it depends when my family goes to sleep.

Timezone GMT+1


My Protocol:

January 23, 12:00 AM: Stop Eating
January 23, 11:00 PM: Stop Drinking
January 24, 12:15 AM: Take 600mg of Ibuprofen (without water)
January 24, 12:50 AM: Prepare 3 glasses of 25mg SN, mixed with 80ml water
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January 24, 01:00 AM: Drink 1 glass of SN, lay down in bed with music


I'm pretty confident. I haven't vomited in years even after eating disgusting things, but it may be different with SN. That's why I'm going to prepare 3 glasses instead of 2.
I think having a positive mindset plays a big role, but I'm not an expert.

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RottenSoul

Disociating through life
Dec 20, 2021
5
Hope nothing bad happened from taking these sips. Did you have to go to the hospital after taking it? Was it painful?
 
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TomIsNotMyName

Existence is suffering
May 3, 2023
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Hope nothing bad happened from taking these sips. Did you have to go to the hospital after taking it? Was it painful?
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Hope you are doing well.
I am now, thank you :heart:
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jakethesnake

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Apr 20, 2023
14
But that doesn't really sound like pain.. or am I wrong?

Literal pain is the thing I'm most worried about... I think I can manage this... I hope so...
There are countless records on here of people that have taken it and say that it is not painful
 
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idontknowwhatiam

Experienced
Sep 10, 2025
201
There are countless records on here of people that have taken it and say that it is not painful
How would we REALLY know especially if they were successful in CTB? I'm not disagreeing with you... My method of choice is sn if I could figure out how and where to buy it.
 
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Stargazer100

no nonsense
May 25, 2021
165
Can only feel pain when concious, so we can really know by hearin witness statements of people who were on the phone or in person with a person dyin of sn, or from the scene after (notes left, ideo recordins left, signs of them tryin to stop or lack thereoff)

Most of that is hidden from the public and expert statements contradict with some saying there were sins of pain and distress while others deny that. In my views; there will always be experts trying to discourage people from doing it by spreading doubt. The fact that there are also experts saying it is one of the best ways to do this to in my opinion can be read as account that this in all likeliness likely isn't painful.

tldr: out of experts who say there is a painless way, most agree that sn is one of those painless ways. To the public (us) that's the best source to base an opinion on.
 
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CenturiesEnd

New Member
Jun 22, 2025
3
I'm considering this method, I hope you find peace no matter what you end up deciding to do.
 
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Arlowantsushi

Arlowantsushi

Trying my best
Feb 4, 2026
24
Its totally understandable and nothing to be ashamed of to get scared and back out.

I hope you know it doesn't make you less valid or anything. its a big decision and should only be done when you're 10000% sure and ready.

Wishing you the best dude.
here if you need someone to chat with.
 
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