My SN Protocol (January 23)

[TomIsNotMyName]

12:14 AM GMT+1: Just took the Ibuprofen


And I changed my title, I'll change it back if I survive

 

[TomIsNotMyName]

1:10 AM GMT+1: Took antacids. Gonna take the sn at 1:40 AM.

This is my final comment. Goodbye everyone

 

[itsallogrenow]

12:14 AM GMT+1: Just took the Ibuprofen


And I changed my title, I'll change it back if I survive

Hope it goes peacefully for you

 

[otium]

Godspeed.

 

[dewdfish]

rest easy, I hope you find the peace you're looking for <3

 

[TomIsNotMyName]

I'm kinda scared... I hope I can do it

 

[dewdfish]

It's okay if you don't feel fully sure right now

 

[TomIsNotMyName]

I can't get myself to drink it.... FUCK.. I'll abort..

 

[anorexicmustrope]

It is the hardest decision a human can take, don't beat yourself up over it. No one here will be mad at you for not doing it, don't worry about that.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Be kind to yourself. Sending love and hugs.

 

[Bimbosqualo]

We're here with you, how are you?

 

[VegasLyra]

Don't you dare feel bad for not being able to go through with it. Billions of years of evolution have hardwired an insanely strong survival instinct in life, and it's even worse for intelligent life like us.

That's why most suicides (in the US at least) are by gun; all it takes is for you to pick up a gun, aim at your head, and pull the trigger. It takes less than a second. Suicides tend to be impulsive, not something you plan in advance.

Sending love

 

[sanctionedusage]

hope you're feeling okay

 

[TomIsNotMyName]

It is the hardest decision a human can take, don't beat yourself up over it. No one here will be mad at you for not doing it, don't worry about that.

Be kind to yourself. Sending love and hugs.

We're here with you, how are you?

Don't you dare feel bad for not being able to go through with it. Billions of years of evolution have hardwired an insanely strong survival instinct in life, and it's even worse for intelligent life like us.

That's why most suicides (in the US at least) are by gun; all it takes is for you to pick up a gun, aim at your head, and pull the trigger. It takes less than a second. Suicides tend to be impulsive, not something you plan in advance.

Sending love

hope you're feeling okay

Thank you all so much I didn't expect everyone being this supportive.

I'm doing okay, but I've felt pressure on my heart all day because I don't know what to do next.. (And I'm pissed that I wasted 75g SN).

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[itsallogrenow]

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It's not painless unfortunately.

I've read rapid heart rate (beyond what normal people experience), stomach/throat burning and struggling to breath alongside the nausea and vomiting.

You have to push through til you become unconscious

 

[InvasionOfPublicity]

Don't feel like you've failed, it could be a second chance (as idealistic as that sounds). Maybe wait a week or more before trying again. I'm not entirely sure if SN tolerance is a thing, but I feel like if you try again too soon, it may end up much less effective and you'll just have a worse experience. We're all here with you, whether you go through with it or not! Sending you much love and calmness

 

[Kazu Ha]

Don't put too much pressure on yourself. I keep delaying it too, and I've hated myself for it...

But it's completely normal and a really difficult decision.
I hope you're feeling a little better. We're here for you

 

[sanctionedusage]

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It's painless in terms of literal pain. But every thread I've ever read of people updating it in real time have detailed it feeling awful. Carryline's final posts even said to do another method shortly after taking it because it felt so bad. Profuse sweating, nausea, dizziness and weakness. It's just the feeling of your body rejecting something with all its might, but obviously being unable to due to the meds/quantity of poison.

 

[TomIsNotMyName]

It's not painless unfortunately.

I've read rapid heart rate (beyond what normal people experience), stomach/throat burning and struggling to breath alongside the nausea and vomiting.

You have to push through til you become unconscious

But that doesn't really sound like pain.. or am I wrong?

It's painless in terms of literal pain. But every thread I've ever read of people updating it in real time have detailed it feeling awful. Carryline's final posts even said to do another method shortly after taking it because it felt so bad. Profuse sweating, nausea, dizziness and weakness. It's just the feeling of your body rejecting something with all its might, but obviously being unable to due to the meds/quantity of poison.

Literal pain is the thing I'm most worried about... I think I can manage this... I hope so...

 

[ChrisFromEarth]

Thank you all so much I didn't expect everyone being this supportive.

I'm doing okay, but I've felt pressure on my heart all day because I don't know what to do next.. (And I'm pissed that I wasted 75g SN).

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SI is so hard hard to vercome

 

[TomIsNotMyName]

Don't feel like you've failed, it could be a second chance (as idealistic as that sounds). Maybe wait a week or more before trying again. I'm not entirely sure if SN tolerance is a thing, but I feel like if you try again too soon, it may end up much less effective and you'll just have a worse experience. We're all here with you, whether you go through with it or not! Sending you much love and calmness

I didn't drink the SN, so there won't be a tolerance, but I'm just so scared of it..

SI is so hard hard to vercome

That's true sadly...

Don't put too much pressure on yourself. I keep delaying it too, and I've hated myself for it...

But it's completely normal and a really difficult decision.
I hope you're feeling a little better. We're here for you

I'm not feeling better at all . The feeling got way worse... I feel like I can't breathe properly, my heart is beating faster than normally, I'm really anxious and kind of panicking, and worst of all I feel trapped.. And I didn't even drink the SN...



Do you know how long SN can be stored after opening? I put it into 2 zipper bags

 

[itsallogrenow]

But that doesn't really sound like pain.. or am I wrong?

Literal pain is the thing I'm most worried about... I think I can manage this... I hope so...

Do you know how long SN can be stored after opening? I put it into 2 zipper bags

Guess it depends on what you class as pain?
To me the burning and vomiting would be physical pain and the rest would cause psychological pain, esp the panic from struggling to breathe.

AFAIK, SN is stable for a long time if kept in an airtight container.

 

[TomIsNotMyName]

AFAIK, SN is stable for a long time if kept in an airtight container.

I've heard that too, but I don't know if zipper bags are airtight enough

Guess it depends on what you class as pain?
To me the burning and vomiting would be physical pain and the rest would cause psychological pain, esp the panic from struggling to breathe.

To me, vomiting wouldn't be pain. Burning is pain in my opinion, but it depends on how bad it is..

And struggling to breathe, it depends.. if it feels like suffocating I would consider it pain (awful pain, even), but if I can still breathe, I think I wouldn't call it pain...

 

[itsallogrenow]

I've heard that too, but I don't know if zipper bags are airtight enough

Had a look and it seems like they aren't. Might want to buy a tub ASAP

 

[TomIsNotMyName]

Had a look and it seems like they aren't. Might want to buy a tub ASAP

Oh no.. how long does it last without? And what kind of tub?

 

[catsalvation]

It's painless in terms of literal pain. But every thread I've ever read of people updating it in real time have detailed it feeling awful. Carryline's final posts even said to do another method shortly after taking it because it felt so bad. Profuse sweating, nausea, dizziness and weakness. It's just the feeling of your body rejecting something with all its might, but obviously being unable to due to the meds/quantity of poison.

I imagine it being like my motion sickness on steroids which is scary, but I don't think there's really other semi-accessible method that has a similar success rate...

 

[itsallogrenow]

Oh no.. how long does it last without? And what kind of tub?

Google says it can start degrading after a month.

I'd just buy a normal, food safe air tight container from a shop.

 

[TomIsNotMyName]

Google says it can start degrading after a month.

I'd just buy a normal, food safe air tight container from a shop.

a month in an airtight container, or without one?

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I've heard that too, but I don't know if zipper bags are airtight enough



To me, vomiting wouldn't be pain. Burning is pain in my opinion, but it depends on how bad it is..

And struggling to breathe, it depends.. if it feels like suffocating I would consider it pain (awful pain, even), but if I can still breathe, I think I wouldn't call it pain...

Yeah, I think it maybe isn't great, but fairly quick? Maybe take a little time to possibly consider other methods? Idk. You would still have the sn as a backup, it's always good to have a backup method. Maybe get an AE in the meantime in case you go with the sn? Just some things to think about.