my psych ward experience gave me ptsd

[hereandthere13]

i can still feel their hands all over my body, pushing me down a force greater than my body weight. strapping me to the bed, stabbing me with unknown chemicals, drifting in and out of conciousness, forcing me to be out of control of my own autonomy. putting me in strange rooms that look like huge, metal lockboxes. leaving me with no explanation. i can still feel everything

 

[telekon]

This cannot go on

 

[bl33ding_heart]

I hope you are able to heal. God bless.

 

[Curious Dread]

I had similar experience as yours, and the sad thing is that the traumatic feelings of that event wont go away anytime soon.

I always wonder how those acts of violent coersion can be illegal. Where are you from for such form of hopitalization acceptable?

 

[Sakura.]

i can still feel their hands all over my body, pushing me down a force greater than my body weight. strapping me to the bed, stabbing me with unknown chemicals, drifting in and out of conciousness, forcing me to be out of control of my own autonomy. putting me in strange rooms that look like huge, metal lockboxes. leaving me with no explanation. i can still feel everything

Hi! I've never had a chance to contact you, but I'd really like to tell you that you're one of my favorite users on SaSu!

You seem like a lovely person... I'm so sorry that you're suffering and that your life is the way you describe it in your posts... And I'm so sorry for what you described in this post...


I'm sure you're a wonderful person, and I really hope you will recover... I really wish you could feel better...

 

[Bitterly_Nostalgic]

My experience in the psych ward was dehumanizing and humiliating, and a complete waste of time to top it off. I hated how the psychiatrists gave me that crisis phone number as if I wasn't already aware of it, told me suicide was a permanent solution to a temporary problem and then patted themselves on the back over how brilliant and heroic they thought they were being.

I have a strong fear of having to return to the psych ward, and I am terrified that my next stay would be even worse. It's currently one of the things preventing me from seeking out help for my mental health. I'll never understand how these people actually think they're helping anyone. How is traumatizing someone helping them? How is making people too afraid to seek proper treatment helping them?

I am sorry to hear what you went through, and I hope you can find a way to heal from it as much as you can.