Açucarzinho583
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- Sep 14, 2023
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Exhausted from Existing
I can't feel good about myself. I don't feel like I should continue in this world, this is not my place, they are hostile, they don't want me in this reality, I must leave, this is the world of illusions, I have nothing, no one here. This world must disappear, the creatures already know that, and I don't have the strength to understand what happened to me, I don't have the strength to continue. I've been feeling less and less like leaving home. I don't care about being alone anymore, I just need peace, maybe that's the only way, how I wish everything were different, but I have no control or influence over anything in this world, I don't want to be someone who asks for attention anymore, I just want to have peace. I'm tired of trying to understand the motivations of other people's wickedness, I'm not like them, I don't want to be bad. I'm tired of being judged for being different. I find myself without direction. So tired of this meaningless existence.
Every day you have to wake up is like a never-ending lesson in emotional, mental and physical exhaustion. Today I am tired. If I were diagnosed with a terminal illness, I would let it take me. Terminal illness and a few months left to live? Awesome. I hate this life. Just waiting for some catastrophe or plague to end this horror show. I hate human beings in general. Honestly, if I were diagnosed with cancer right now, I probably wouldn't do chemotherapy or treatment. It's just exhausting to be alive. I've stopped living and I'm just existing.
I can't feel good about myself. I don't feel like I should continue in this world, this is not my place, they are hostile, they don't want me in this reality, I must leave, this is the world of illusions, I have nothing, no one here. This world must disappear, the creatures already know that, and I don't have the strength to understand what happened to me, I don't have the strength to continue. I've been feeling less and less like leaving home. I don't care about being alone anymore, I just need peace, maybe that's the only way, how I wish everything were different, but I have no control or influence over anything in this world, I don't want to be someone who asks for attention anymore, I just want to have peace. I'm tired of trying to understand the motivations of other people's wickedness, I'm not like them, I don't want to be bad. I'm tired of being judged for being different. I find myself without direction. So tired of this meaningless existence.
Every day you have to wake up is like a never-ending lesson in emotional, mental and physical exhaustion. Today I am tired. If I were diagnosed with a terminal illness, I would let it take me. Terminal illness and a few months left to live? Awesome. I hate this life. Just waiting for some catastrophe or plague to end this horror show. I hate human beings in general. Honestly, if I were diagnosed with cancer right now, I probably wouldn't do chemotherapy or treatment. It's just exhausting to be alive. I've stopped living and I'm just existing.
