My plan

[bad luck]

Hello and sorry for my English. Antidepressants, anti-anxiety medications, and alcohol may have lowered my IQ, which was 118.

My plan is the following, to see what you think.

Request a credit only for N (€965 approx.) Send it to D and wait to receive it. In the meantime, I'll go to my favorite German brewery, I'll order two pitchers of my favorite landbier (2 liters), I'll chat with my favorite German speaking in my German from 10 years ago to bother him xD , I speak little and badly, like in English (damn benzos). Then I'll go with a prostitute friend. He is independent and lives well. He doesn't charge me but I always bring him a gift. I'll spend an hour with her. Then I'll go to my hotel (not booked yet) I'll cry a little looking at the pictures of my family (the one I want, not the one I don't want) maybe I'll drink some whiskey, something good, I've been to Scotland trying a lot of whyskies and I'll buy some of them.

First, I will mail some gold and silver to a certain little person whom I esteem too much. I'll wait until I've eliminated some alcohol, lay down on my bed and drink N.

N is possible that it arrives or not.

N is pending a financial operation that I must do.

Hopefully I'll die and join nothing. The silence and peace.

 

[jimmy7754]

Beautiful.

 

[bad luck]

In the hypothetical case that N does not arrive, I will go with SN. Then I will not drink or eat for 8 hours even though I will do the above. I wouldn't want to be found blue as a smurf, but it's the only thing I can do. Without knowing this forum, my method would be to throw myself into the void from 23 meters. A well-known bridge in my city.

Difference between knowing the forum and not doing it. From a violent and probably traumatic death for my family to a peaceful method. thanks SS

 

[FuneralCry]

I can imagine it must be a relief to be able to exit this world in a peaceful way. I also long for the silence of death, it comforts me to think that the suffering will come to an end. I wish you the best in whatever happens. I hope you find what you are looking for.