I think the best plan is to be disappeared.
Finding secluded spot far from the trail, good view of the lake and mountain (in Washington state).
1. Carrying 22cu aluminum cylinder tank/regulator/cpap mask (about 20lbs)
2. SN bottle.
3. Water, last meal etc.
I had extensive hiking experience- carrying heavy load and finish 50 miles distance in 3 days.
rock climbing/ ice climbing
22cu cylinder should last me about 20-30min and it will put me unconscious. My digestive organ would still work to get SN after drinking it. At least I know I can go unconscious, and it would prevent me from throwing up.
Things that I worry/ and preventing me to die so far, is.. when I am found in society, police and coroner office will bug everyone around me and trying to make some kind of descriptions to justify how crazy I am (from my psychiatric/medical/social) record. I saw how they performed postmortem. F**k. I don't want to be some kind of rat getting vivisection. I have no family or friend helping this body for funeral anyway.
In our society, there no death with dignity. I found that if you don't have money for funeral, your body will be donated (cremation scam) to some private company to be chopped off for medical school/ or even anyone without credential can order it for a meat. It's grey market. Rest of some left over body parts will be cremated and returned to family or just trashed. I know after ctb nothing matters anymore but I don't want my remain to be just used/abused. Maybe feeding wild animals could be better decision for me. Kinda wanted to be a bear after ctb. Hopefully the creator will listen to my last wish. Or let me just banish.
Finding secluded spot far from the trail, good view of the lake and mountain (in Washington state).
1. Carrying 22cu aluminum cylinder tank/regulator/cpap mask (about 20lbs)
2. SN bottle.
3. Water, last meal etc.
I had extensive hiking experience- carrying heavy load and finish 50 miles distance in 3 days.
rock climbing/ ice climbing
22cu cylinder should last me about 20-30min and it will put me unconscious. My digestive organ would still work to get SN after drinking it. At least I know I can go unconscious, and it would prevent me from throwing up.
Things that I worry/ and preventing me to die so far, is.. when I am found in society, police and coroner office will bug everyone around me and trying to make some kind of descriptions to justify how crazy I am (from my psychiatric/medical/social) record. I saw how they performed postmortem. F**k. I don't want to be some kind of rat getting vivisection. I have no family or friend helping this body for funeral anyway.
In our society, there no death with dignity. I found that if you don't have money for funeral, your body will be donated (cremation scam) to some private company to be chopped off for medical school/ or even anyone without credential can order it for a meat. It's grey market. Rest of some left over body parts will be cremated and returned to family or just trashed. I know after ctb nothing matters anymore but I don't want my remain to be just used/abused. Maybe feeding wild animals could be better decision for me. Kinda wanted to be a bear after ctb. Hopefully the creator will listen to my last wish. Or let me just banish.
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