My next attempt: Jumping.

[Cockney_Rebel]

So I self-discharged from the psych ward yesterday.

They put some young fuck in the room next to me, and he was kicking off non stop. Smashing doors in, screaming, shouting, fighting the nurses, the works. He was jabbed (liquid cosh) but he was still going strong.

I couldn't take it, so I self discharged.

I thought I'd get home and feel better for it, but that's not the case. I seem to have slipped into a deep depression, and it's horrible. I'm also fantasising HARD about my next attempt. And when I get to this stage (hardcore fantasising) I always act upon it.

My focus is now on jumping. I'm thinking of going back to Bristol, to jump off of the Clifton Suspension Bridge.

I've travelled there before, but was caught and sectioned before I could make it over the suicide barrier. But this time I'll be much more prepared. I have a solid plan, but I'll keep the details to myself for obvious reasons.

Anyway, I'm struggling here and have turned to the people who seem to understand the most: My SS family.

Wishing you all well x.

 

[hʚll]

hey. i'm sorry that you're suffering a lot.
i wish that you can be free from this pain and desperation soon.
sending you a hug.

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

hey. i'm sorry that you're suffering a lot.
i wish that you can be free from this pain and desperation soon.
sending you a hug.

Thanks for the reply, and kind words.

Sending a hug back to you.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you have been through that, the psych ward sounds awful. If you decide to go through with it, then I wish you peace. Life can be really hard when you are suffering that much. I wish you well.

 

[Largeletters]

I wish the psych ward helped you (or any of us). Unfortunately, it is never a quick fix, or a fix at all really. I'm sorry you're suffering and I wish you peace in what you may seek.