my life is amazing, goodbye

[nembutal]

realized i have the same amount of power to enjoy my life as i do to destroy it. realized i am to blame for every shitty situation i have gone through in my use especially. realized i am not a fucking victim, and i am just as capable as the person next to me.

if you want to live you will do anything to fight for it. stay open minded. i used to hate people telling me to go outside but fuck, it works. i practiced optimism through tears and now suicide is not my first thought when something goes wrong. i look around and am grateful for what i have instead of fruitlessly chasing what i dont. stopped using diagnoses as an excuse.

i STOPPED CONSUMING MEDIA THAT REINFORCES MY DEPRESSION. no pessimistic ahhh imma kms lol meme pages no entertaining doomery jokes (ie GET OFF THIS WEBSITE IF U ACTUALLY WANT TO RECOVER) ur mom was right, it's the damn phone.

remember that your brain places you into illusions and shifts reality in order to drive you into a deeper hole of depression. we are diseased but we can learn to live alongside it.

10 months sober from heroin. 5 from self harm. got a successful hot sexy boyfriend who pushes me in the right direction. birdsong makes my day. year ago i would tell myself now that im delusional everything sucks u ignorant fuck!!! wahh wahhh wahhh. honestly idc because this is so much better than 24/7 bedrot and asking myself why im miserable why fucking boys who ghost me post nut and snorting heroin and listening to doomer podcasts and bleeding all over my bed

 

[Dot]

Nce 2 C u leavng fr all th/ gd reasns

Gd lck fr ur futre & hpe tht thngs cntinu t/ gt bettr

 

[INYGTRMTFMO]

So glad that things are looking up for you. :)

 

[EternalShore]

you're so lucky~ >_< I hope your life continues to be nice, and it's nice how you overcame all that~ :)

 

[CatLvr]

I am so happy for you!! Yes, it is hard work being happy (and content) but it is definitely worth the effort for those of us who manage to figure out how to make it work. I will admit I still struggle when my pain levels are high, but as long as I keep my eye on my son (who is my whole life) I will ... No, I CAN ... make this work.

I know you will take this in the light in which I mean it -- I hope I NEVER see your screen name again. But, also, know you are welcome back here any time you feel the need. Good luck!

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

While I don't agree with everything you say, I am more than happy to see you recover like this! I hope it keeps getting better, and if you ever want, mama bear will always be here to console you!

 

[TheShadowQueen]

Congrats on getting better

Still though you come off as an insensitive asshole congrats all those things worked for you but not everyone is you.

Do you not realize how corny you sound saying it's just the phone and to go outside and that's the magic fix everything button.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Congrats on getting better

Still though you come off as an insensitive asshole congrats all those things worked for you but not everyone is you.

Do you not realize how corny you sound saying it's just the phone and to go outside and that's the magic fix everything button. View attachment 171840

I think the recovery may be mainly due to quitting H, from what I have heard, once a person has their first high, while the high may be amazing, ALL future moments might be compared to it, making the person feel disappointed, etc.

 

[concession]

See ya in another 10 months