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purplesky9

Specialist
Sep 21, 2024
301
My life is just like a nightmare that I can't wake up from. Things just keep getting worse and worse. I feel like something badder going to happen soon and there's nothing I can do about. I'm helpless. I just desperately want to escape this hell but there's nothing I can do. I have no method that will work for me. I'm doomed.
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,228
Same. I'll probably end this nightmare sooner than expected. I just wish this time it will work and I'll be in peace
 
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Eternal Disaster

Eternal Disaster

IHaveDemonsInMyHead
Aug 3, 2025
113
I feel like something badder going to happen soon and there's nothing I can do about. I'm helpless. I just desperately want to escape this hell but there's nothing I can do.
Same. Never felt this much helpless.
 
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kunikuzushi

kunikuzushi

sause
Jan 24, 2023
627
I feel the same. It just keeps getting worse, and I feel helpless and desperate to escape like you. I hope you can find peace and an escape from this.
 
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Ambien addict

Student
Jul 27, 2025
159
I feel the same. It just keeps getting worse, and I feel helpless and desperate to escape like you. I hope you can find peace and an escape from this.
SAME! who has a good plan??? I can't figure one out!!!
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,379
I understand, it's just so cruel and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and it really sounds like you've suffered so much, I also just wish to be free from it all, all I want is to never suffer again and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just access a painless guaranteed death, I hope you find the peace you search for, I wish you the best.
 
Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
802
I understand your feelings, I am in a similar situation. Waiting for KTB day. I am sorry that you are going through this. No one deserves to suffer like this. You can search for ways on this site
 
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Feldsparc

Student
Jan 3, 2025
110
I feel like my life is a nightmare too. I have my son but I don't feel grateful that I have him left after everything has been destroyed. I just think of what's gone and I don't want to live anymore. I had it all...a great job, a lovely family, looks, a loving husband, my own house. And in the blink of an eye...all gone. Just gone. I'm all alone in a foreign country with nothing to live for... except for my son. But what can I give him when I'm empty
 
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peacebenow

Enough
Apr 26, 2026
142
My life is an absolute nightmare. Everyday I ask myself am I really alive or when will I wake up out of this nightmare. A tortuous existence for far too long.
 

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