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Elementalist
Feb 21, 2025
813
my hypothetical top 5 methods (all of it is hypothetical):
there are prefered hypothetical methods that aren't available, such as buying the Nembutal i believe it's called.
and a firearm.

so if we exclude those methods, my top 5 hypothetical methods would be:
1. hanging with a specific type of knot (the youtube video title is:
Adjustable Slip Knot – The Easiest Sliding Loop You'll Ever Tie
... and don't people also recommend thick socks around the throat to easilier pass out?
or am i thinking of something else?
and it would hypothetically by full hanging, as also described on this site.
it can be done from the top of a door.
please correct me on anything you feel i might be wrong about, factually.

2. SN... and i would maybe combine it with something else for an almost guaranteed effect, once again hypothetically speaking only of course.

3. jumping, but i'm really really scared of accidentally landing on an innocent person.
so it would need to be a secluded place, or maybe jumping into a water.
but i've seen professional swimmers jump from like 80 or maybe even 100 meters and land elegantly, absolutely nothing lethal about it.
so i don't understand that one. how sometimes it's lethal, but not always?

4. BBQ grill method but that is also risky because it can affect innocent people, so it would need to be in a tent or somewhere else secluded.
maybe an abandoned building, setting up a tent in there.

5. i have epilepsy and i could probably do things such as sleep deprivation, to sort of "schedule" (if you will) a seizure and then
make sure i'm in a dangerous place for a potential seizure, such as a swimming pool.
there's certain bad things i can do to make myself more likely to have seizures, as i just for example said; sleep deprivation.
a seizure lasts probably 3 minutes (tho it feels like 3 hours), it should be enough for someone to hypothetically drown.

fuck it, i said top 5, but why stop?

6. fentanyl OD... i would need to be sure i got a very high guaranteed lethal dose to suicide with.
obviously not tell the pusher, but make sure to obtain that information before hypothetically doing it.

7. this one is really crazy, but aviici did it. stabbed himself in the neck with a broken bottle.
they said he got lucky and hit his arteries in the right place, and that it's a difficult thing to do.
and you also have to be really really eratic and hyped up to stab yourself in the neck, i assume.
i think i would only be able to stab myself in the neck one time, and then i don't think i could do anymore.
so it would need to be that one lucky stab right in the arteries.

8. stabbing myself in the heart or something, or just doing your best to lose as much blood as possible, hypothetically.
any suggestions?

9. strangulation or cutting off your own air supply.
i know you can't strangle yourself to death, because as soon as you pass out, your hands would loosen, and you would eventually wake up later.
but what about something with a plastic bag?
or zip ties around your own neck
 
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dragon.//

Member
Nov 5, 2025
67
it is highly unlikely that you end up going through with the 8th method. Your mind will physically and mentally stop you from stabbing yourself
 
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Elementalist
Feb 21, 2025
813
it is highly unlikely that you end up going through with the 8th method. Your mind will physically and mentally stop you from stabbing yourself
right, that's why it's low on the list. but you never know
 
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idontknowwhatiam

Student
Sep 10, 2025
182
my hypothetical top 5 methods (all of it is hypothetical):
there are prefered hypothetical methods that aren't available, such as buying the Nembutal i believe it's called.
and a firearm.

so if we exclude those methods, my top 5 hypothetical methods would be:
1. hanging with a specific type of knot (the youtube video title is:
Adjustable Slip Knot – The Easiest Sliding Loop You'll Ever Tie
... and don't people also recommend thick socks around the throat to easilier pass out?
or am i thinking of something else?
and it would hypothetically by full hanging, as also described on this site.
it can be done from the top of a door.
please correct me on anything you feel i might be wrong about, factually.

2. SN... and i would maybe combine it with something else for an almost guaranteed effect, once again hypothetically speaking only of course.

3. jumping, but i'm really really scared of accidentally landing on an innocent person.
so it would need to be a secluded place, or maybe jumping into a water.
but i've seen professional swimmers jump from like 80 or maybe even 100 meters and land elegantly, absolutely nothing lethal about it.
so i don't understand that one. how sometimes it's lethal, but not always?

4. BBQ grill method but that is also risky because it can affect innocent people, so it would need to be in a tent or somewhere else secluded.
maybe an abandoned building, setting up a tent in there.

5. i have epilepsy and i could probably do things such as sleep deprivation, to sort of "schedule" (if you will) a seizure and then
make sure i'm in a dangerous place for a potential seizure, such as a swimming pool.
there's certain bad things i can do to make myself more likely to have seizures, as i just for example said; sleep deprivation.
a seizure lasts probably 3 minutes (tho it feels like 3 hours), it should be enough for someone to hypothetically drown.

fuck it, i said top 5, but why stop?

6. fentanyl OD... i would need to be sure i got a very high guaranteed lethal dose to suicide with.
obviously not tell the pusher, but make sure to obtain that information before hypothetically doing it.

7. this one is really crazy, but aviici did it. stabbed himself in the neck with a broken bottle.
they said he got lucky and hit his arteries in the right place, and that it's a difficult thing to do.
and you also have to be really really eratic and hyped up to stab yourself in the neck, i assume.
i think i would only be able to stab myself in the neck one time, and then i don't think i could do anymore.
so it would need to be that one lucky stab right in the arteries.

8. stabbing myself in the heart or something, or just doing your best to lose as much blood as possible, hypothetically.
any suggestions?

9. strangulation or cutting off your own air supply.
i know you can't strangle yourself to death, because as soon as you pass out, your hands would loosen, and you would eventually wake up later.
but what about something with a plastic bag?
or zip ties around your own neck
I never knew that's how Aviici passed.....
 
OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,144
Partial hanging can work from the top of a door
I must have tried this 20 times by now. I just can't imagine voluntarily lowering yourself into unconsciousness. I always stand up when it gets even slightly weird.

That leaves FSH. In that moment when the rope is tight and I'm just starting to feel tingly, step off instead of stand up. But goodness gracious it's terrifying.
 
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Elementalist
Feb 21, 2025
813
Partial hanging can work from the top of a door. Full would be hard to accomplish, yes, unless you're a munchkin, I mean "little person", for the pc crowd.
well, the definition of full hanging can mean as little as 1 cm above ground.
im looking at my doors right now, they look close to 2 meters tall, which is like michael jordan height.
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well, the definition of full hanging can mean as little as 1 cm above ground.
im looking at my doors right now, they look close to 2 meters tall, which is like michael jordan height.
so i don't see why not, unless there's a point i'm missing
 
hurb

hurb

I care too much to give a f*ck
Jan 22, 2026
108
I wonder , lets say u r going for hanging. Is taking substances like alcohol or drugs recommended before committing.
Maybe make us more impulsive
 
madameviolette

madameviolette

Another Big Pharma victim
Oct 9, 2025
536
Are you completely unaware when you're having a seizure ?

Does it feel like momentary sleep ?
 
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Elementalist
Feb 21, 2025
813
Are you completely unaware when you're having a seizure ?

Does it feel like momentary sleep ?
it feels like being continuously hit in the head with a baseball bat over and over again.
i get a 5 to 10 second warning feeling before it actually happens, where i can tell it's coming
 
madameviolette

madameviolette

Another Big Pharma victim
Oct 9, 2025
536
it feels like being continuously hit in the head with a baseball bat over and over again.
i get a 5 to 10 second warning feeling before it actually happens, where i can tell it's coming
So you are actually aware and in pain when having a seizure ? That's awful
 
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Elementalist
Feb 21, 2025
813
So you are actually aware and in pain when having a seizure ? That's awful
yes. i hear they last 3 minutes, but it feels a lot more like 3 hours.
but the pain afterwards is just as terrible. the pain gradually slowly goes away.
i often just lie there in agony like a wounded soldier on the battle field making whimpering sounds
 
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madameviolette

Another Big Pharma victim
Oct 9, 2025
536
yes. i hear they last 3 minutes, but it feels a lot more like 3 hours.
but the pain afterwards is just as terrible. the pain gradually slowly goes away.
i often just lie there in agony like a wounded soldier on the battle field making whimpering sounds
I'm sorry, sounds terrible đź«‚
 
Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

Wizard
Jul 3, 2025
665
The door method doesn't work always for hanging. Last week I tried it just with partial and I could see after my test how the door already had a gap so it was in the process of opening itself which of course would destroy the whole attempt.
I have bad luck with door because we don't have those old fashioned thick doors those would definitely work I guess because they're huge and from what I researched they're very strong.
 
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Elementalist
Feb 21, 2025
813
Just be aware that SN might trigger seizures in sensitive people. They might not be the same type as yours but still
i know. if it can guarantee me death tho, then i'll endure it, hypothetically.
 
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hurb

I care too much to give a f*ck
Jan 22, 2026
108
The door method doesn't work always for hanging. Last week I tried it just with partial and I could see after my test how the door already had a gap so it was in the process of opening itself which of course would destroy the whole attempt.
I have bad luck with door because we don't have those old fashioned thick doors those would definitely work I guess because they're huge and from what I researched they're very strong.
partial is a scam , should commit to FSH if u ever want to go with hanging
 
Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

Wizard
Jul 3, 2025
665
partial is a scam , should commit to FSH if u ever want to go with hanging
I think partial would kill you if you sit on the air and you are unconscious so the carotids will stay constricted but my biggest fear would be what if while getting unconscious I'd change my position so that the carotids wouldn't be fully constricted.
 
darksouls

darksouls

Visionary
May 10, 2025
2,583
however you decide,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering đź«‚:heart:
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,425
well, the definition of full hanging can mean as little as 1 cm above ground.
im looking at my doors right now, they look close to 2 meters tall, which is like michael jordan height.
Technically, I guess that's true. Still, FS from a door would be difficult to pull off for most average height individuals, imo, anyway.
 
inextremis

inextremis

Member
Jan 22, 2026
16
partial is a scam , should commit to FSH if u ever want to go with hanging
I mean it works for some people


It does give your SI too much room to intervene though
 
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,425
I always stand up when it gets even slightly weird.
From all the reading I've done on it, that's what most ppl do. Partial is a hard one. It takes 100% resolve since it's so easy to back out of it. My cousin managed to do it successfully. But, he did it standing up. Tied one end of a rope to a clothing rod in a closet, other end around his neck, and just leaned forward. He could have easily changed his mind and stood back up straight. You really have to be committed and devoid of all hope of things getting better. It's a tough one.
 
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Elementalist
Feb 21, 2025
813
From all the reading I've done on it, that's what most ppl do. Partial is a hard one. It takes 100% resolve since it's so easy to back out of it. My cousin managed to do it successfully. But, he did it standing up. Tied one end of a rope to a clothing rod in a closet, other end around his neck, and just leaned forward. He could have easily changed his mind and stood back up straight. You really have to be committed and devoid of all hope of things getting better. It's a tough one.
do you know if he had any failed attempts before?
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,425
do you know if he had any failed attempts before?
I don't recall any, but it's been a while since he passed. It wouldn't surprise me if he had, but I really don't know. The deal is that he was gay. His parents, mostly his mother, were (are) fundamentalist religious zealots. The kind that chant and call upon jesus to cast out the demons. Speak in tongues. That kind of shit. And this is USA, btw. She never gave him a break. She was never going to accept him. I guess he finally had enough of it all. Ironically, his mother is the one who found him, too. They're cousins through marriage, and I have nothing to do with them to this day. Don't even know if they're still alive. Don't care.
 
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Elementalist
Feb 21, 2025
813
I don't recall any, but it's been a while since he passed. It wouldn't surprise me if he had, but I really don't know. The deal is that he was gay. His parents, mostly his mother, were (are) fundamentalist religious zealots. The kind that chant and call upon jesus to cast out the demons. Speak in tongues. That kind of shit. And this is USA, btw. She never gave him a break. She was never going to accept him. I guess he finally had enough of it all. Ironically, his mother is the one who found him, too. They're cousins through marriage, and I have nothing to do with them to this day. Don't even know if they're still alive. Don't care.
oh yeah, doesn't sound good, i know about extremists lol
 
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