For me it took rougly 2 months.
First Its important to decide, if you really wanna die or just the pain to end. Both are perfectly rational, but it will be easier with first variant. I realised my true wish and goal is to leave even though I have good friends, caring family, life is good. I know it sounds bizarre to leave in this state. No one could doubt that I am suicidal, because I appear and am happy.
Its also good idea to have strong faith in method. Knowing that there is no significant chance of failing also can produce calmness. What about anxiety about failing? I wrote to my testament that should I botch something, I prefer euthanasia in country where its legal. I know that my note is good enough to convince them that im not mentally ill and its my true wish. Bye now there shouldnt be fear of failure.
Next is to overcome fear of death, fear of not existing. We are somehow programmed to think its bad. But is it really? It means just not existing anymore. There are infinite things that dont exist. Image some random person who has not yet born Do you think he/she feels bad? For him nothing exist.
There is also approch which I chose. Read NDE-s. Of course that tunnel vision and light could be hallucinations, BUT: what about those, who came back with vertificable information that couldnt be accesed from normal senses. Seeing and accurately describing relatives that had died before you were born. Isnt that convincing enough for happy afterlife??? Or seeing vertificable details about you surroundings while being unconscious? These reports convinced me about afterlife. There is nothing to fear.
How about my last week here? Living life at fullest. Spending time with friends, enjoying every second of it and giving max effort whst ever I need to do. Going to clean my room that I almost never clean. Im fully prepared. Just need to buy vinegar and citric acid this week.
Hole this helps someone.
First Its important to decide, if you really wanna die or just the pain to end. Both are perfectly rational, but it will be easier with first variant. I realised my true wish and goal is to leave even though I have good friends, caring family, life is good. I know it sounds bizarre to leave in this state. No one could doubt that I am suicidal, because I appear and am happy.
Its also good idea to have strong faith in method. Knowing that there is no significant chance of failing also can produce calmness. What about anxiety about failing? I wrote to my testament that should I botch something, I prefer euthanasia in country where its legal. I know that my note is good enough to convince them that im not mentally ill and its my true wish. Bye now there shouldnt be fear of failure.
Next is to overcome fear of death, fear of not existing. We are somehow programmed to think its bad. But is it really? It means just not existing anymore. There are infinite things that dont exist. Image some random person who has not yet born Do you think he/she feels bad? For him nothing exist.
There is also approch which I chose. Read NDE-s. Of course that tunnel vision and light could be hallucinations, BUT: what about those, who came back with vertificable information that couldnt be accesed from normal senses. Seeing and accurately describing relatives that had died before you were born. Isnt that convincing enough for happy afterlife??? Or seeing vertificable details about you surroundings while being unconscious? These reports convinced me about afterlife. There is nothing to fear.
How about my last week here? Living life at fullest. Spending time with friends, enjoying every second of it and giving max effort whst ever I need to do. Going to clean my room that I almost never clean. Im fully prepared. Just need to buy vinegar and citric acid this week.
Hole this helps someone.
