Venting My father

[nowhere2befound]

I don't know why i feel so sorry for the guy. I totally understand why he acted the way he did, nevertheless I don't think he is a bad father. He lost someone very very close to him due to ctb and is even taking care of another really close person to him that tried to ctb. Where are you god? Couldn't you at least make me somehow normal so that he could at least be happy as an old pal? Why so much suffering to him? He never did anything wrong i swear. He is the purest soul that ever walked this earth. I can't stand this injustice. At least one thing, at least me, I could have been something to bring at least a little bit of joy into his life. Freaking worst thing ever is what he got instead again. I don't get it. I never will.