My mom mistreated me strongly when I was a child my dad did nothing against it. It was so bad also my sister has become severly mentally ill. In order to avoid a guilty conscience they say everything will be fine at the end I will get a job and be happy. They just create another reality. Both are very ignorant. I already said I gonna ctb when I will live in poverty (2 therapists think that too). My parents know of them. I am pretty sure it is gonna end in poverty/suicide. They live in their everything will be fine bubble. My dad is so fucking ignorant. He wants me to go to a school with mentally disabled (I was on the top at my normal school and I am very smart in contrast to him). I am so fucking angry when I think about his ignorance. My mom sees at little bit what is coming and is sometimes scared but she pushes it away. But he just acts as everything would be perfect. Now he absolutely believes it. Tomorrow I have to meet him. He wonders why I do not want to meet him/speak to him so often. I have already tolded him in his face that he his fucking ignorant and that I get very angry about his attitude. At least both provide me with (much) money. Especially my mom. The time is running and every year I get closer to poverty. I am extremely fragile it is like 99% I will never be able to hold a job.
It is so unfair they can just push it away and I always have to face the despair. There is also a big loneliness and another mentally issues that come along with it. However my mom is mostly scared when I talk about the monetary issues.
Soon it is the end of the year and another year of failure after failure will be gone. I still try to fight but is so obvious I will lose in the end.
It is so unfair they can just push it away and I always have to face the despair. There is also a big loneliness and another mentally issues that come along with it. However my mom is mostly scared when I talk about the monetary issues.
Soon it is the end of the year and another year of failure after failure will be gone. I still try to fight but is so obvious I will lose in the end.
