Decayed
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- Oct 16, 2023
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idk why i'm posting this but i thought you guys might be interested. a couple months ago i od on poppers (alkyl nitrite) by drinking it, basically i had the poppers in my possession and a quick google search told me ingesting them would be lethal so i did. the reason i'm still here is cause i got scared about the pain and told my parents what id done, even tho i was rushed to the hospital it was still a close to death experience so i figured id share my experience.
pain wasn't really an issue but i was on oxygen and stuff so maybe without a hospital it would be worse but honestly the only pain i experienced was stinging as a drank it and mild chest pain, tho to be honest ive had worse chest pain from a stitch i got while running.
the fear was also a non issue as i wasn't scared at all and in fact i got giggly and excited when they were saying i may die. idk if that's cause im suicidal or if it was the lack of oxygen tho
cost was again not an issue as all it took was $35 aud and a trip to a sex store and the poppers were mine
after effects of the od were probably one of the worst parts i slept for like two days straight and had a horrible memory for about a week or two (couldn't remember anything that happened over five minutes beforehand) and i still have tremors sometimes tho they have died down a lot
the very worst thing was the impact it had on my mum who sat beside me in hospital and as she would say it traumatised her
be warned i was quite lucky as the chances of brain damage are quite high from my research but overall was a decent experience considering it was an attempt and i will probably do it again when i do ctb
anyways that was my experience
pain wasn't really an issue but i was on oxygen and stuff so maybe without a hospital it would be worse but honestly the only pain i experienced was stinging as a drank it and mild chest pain, tho to be honest ive had worse chest pain from a stitch i got while running.
the fear was also a non issue as i wasn't scared at all and in fact i got giggly and excited when they were saying i may die. idk if that's cause im suicidal or if it was the lack of oxygen tho
cost was again not an issue as all it took was $35 aud and a trip to a sex store and the poppers were mine
after effects of the od were probably one of the worst parts i slept for like two days straight and had a horrible memory for about a week or two (couldn't remember anything that happened over five minutes beforehand) and i still have tremors sometimes tho they have died down a lot
the very worst thing was the impact it had on my mum who sat beside me in hospital and as she would say it traumatised her
be warned i was quite lucky as the chances of brain damage are quite high from my research but overall was a decent experience considering it was an attempt and i will probably do it again when i do ctb
anyways that was my experience
