My dreams are hopeless and will die with me

[Braindead Atheist]

I wish I could have been pretty, I wish I could have been skinny and had a normal matabolism, I wish I could have been a successful graphic designer and gotten a condo or apartment at meadowbrook park by my house. I wish I could have done an aerial cartwheel and a back-handspring step-out. I wish I could have gotten my punch front, and learned more skills on bars(I only know 2). I wish I could have gone to lunch with my past teachers; Mrs.Allen, Mrs.Brun, Mrs. D, Mrs.Dziadosz, Mrs.Lillis and Mrs.Morgan. I wish for justice against my enemies. I wish people would know my story and accept me and my flaws. But Alace, none of that will ever happen. Not one of my "dreams" are going to come true. I gave things time to work out and I just don't see anything happening for me. It breaks my heart that no one wants to say goodbye to me, but maybe it just isn't really my problem anymore. I'm done; done with everything and soon I'll be fading away with no awareness that I ever existed.

Why couldn't things have been different? (I'm using past tense because this life is already dead to me)

 

[whywere]

I send you a lot of hugs, smiles and the knowledge that you are loved and cared about. I am by myself, no family, no friends, but I do have the folks here to help make me feel wanted, welcomed and alive. I ,again, send you lots of well wishes as we are in this TOGETHER.

Please have a nice weekend , relax and enjoy a cold beverage and some tasty food.

All my best to you,

Walter

 

[FuneralCry]

Life really is unfair and disappointing. I understand that it painful to have dreams that will never come true. I'm sorry you are suffering. I wish you well.

 

[Braindead Atheist]

I send you a lot of hugs, smiles and the knowledge that you are loved and cared about. I am by myself, no family, no friends, but I do have the folks here to help make me feel wanted, welcomed and alive. I ,again, send you lots of well wishes as we are in this TOGETHER.

Please have a nice weekend , relax and enjoy a cold beverage and some tasty food.

All my best to you,

Walter

I am so sorry. Message me anytime you want.