Sometimes I have to rant about my family. Both my parents love me however they abused/mistreatet me for almost a decade. Life was such an horror. It still is due to the longterm damage they have caused. Also my sister is now severly mentally ill just like me. I think my mom was the main protaganist of the abuse, my sister thinks it was my dad. It is fact that he looked away when my mom beat me up almost every single day for nothing.
Yesterday my dad called me and damn he is so stupid. Why do I have to be a relative of them? He always insults politicians they would be losers, absolutely incompetent and idiots. Yeah my dad who is stupid as fuck calls people who have an insane career losers. I am sure they did not destroy the lives of their children. For me this is the perfect definition of a lose. To abuse your own children. My parents should be ashamed of them.
My dad insults foreigners (he sometimes uses the N-Word), refugees and unemployed people. Ironically I will be unemployed due to the abuse of them.
Yesterday he called me out why I often say "I think that is true" instead saying "that is true". I would like to call him out why he such a jerk, not able to understand simple German grammar and at the same time insulting foreigners they could not speak our language.
He often told me I was too smart for commiting suicide. When I told him I like the work of David Foster Wallace he told me DFW could not be that smart because he ctb. When I told him I would like to find a way to get assisted suicide he told me if I did that he would stop giving me money.
There are many reasons why I could be mad about my dad. However I have to say in contrast to my mom I think he never beat me up. Maybe one time but I am not sure. My sister said he always hit her.
I kind of think my parents get what they deserve when I ctb. If I do it they will know they are responsible. However I am not sure if my dad will not blame other people for some reason. I am not sure when I ctb. If I ctb after their death, they will have to live with me in poverty for some decades. (Not sure if my dad will still give me much money then.) In 5-10 years they will stop working and get pension.
Life will get very uncomfortable for us. For me it always was.
Yesterday my dad called me and damn he is so stupid. Why do I have to be a relative of them? He always insults politicians they would be losers, absolutely incompetent and idiots. Yeah my dad who is stupid as fuck calls people who have an insane career losers. I am sure they did not destroy the lives of their children. For me this is the perfect definition of a lose. To abuse your own children. My parents should be ashamed of them.
My dad insults foreigners (he sometimes uses the N-Word), refugees and unemployed people. Ironically I will be unemployed due to the abuse of them.
Yesterday he called me out why I often say "I think that is true" instead saying "that is true". I would like to call him out why he such a jerk, not able to understand simple German grammar and at the same time insulting foreigners they could not speak our language.
He often told me I was too smart for commiting suicide. When I told him I like the work of David Foster Wallace he told me DFW could not be that smart because he ctb. When I told him I would like to find a way to get assisted suicide he told me if I did that he would stop giving me money.
There are many reasons why I could be mad about my dad. However I have to say in contrast to my mom I think he never beat me up. Maybe one time but I am not sure. My sister said he always hit her.
I kind of think my parents get what they deserve when I ctb. If I do it they will know they are responsible. However I am not sure if my dad will not blame other people for some reason. I am not sure when I ctb. If I ctb after their death, they will have to live with me in poverty for some decades. (Not sure if my dad will still give me much money then.) In 5-10 years they will stop working and get pension.
Life will get very uncomfortable for us. For me it always was.
