Venting My boyfriend doesn’t want to see me.

[BPDbitch]

So, after spending £15 I don't have on a taxi home from A&E last night, one of my flatmates gave me a weird look (they were all howling with laughter when the paramedics/police showed up too), so I just went to bed instead of having some food because I wanted out of the kitchen.

Now today I was wanting to go and see my boyfriend who lives an hour and a half away, for some company as all my family live much further away. But he doesn't want to see me, and I'm scared that he is going to finish with me again which will probably tip me over the edge. I just want to see someone/have a cuddle and I can't even have that.

Also have a horrible ligature mark and throat/neck pain, so that is fantastic. Really glad I'm alive, it's great

 

[randomz]

Sending you a virtual hug. I know it's nothing but still.... Relationships are hard but the good thing about them is that a person could have many in their life. If you you want you can always PM me to have a chat.

 

[BPDbitch]

Sending you a virtual hug. I know it's nothing but still.... Relationships are hard but the good thing about them is that a person could have many in their life. If you you want you can always PM me to have a chat.

Thank you. I know he will naturally be angry/hurt, but I just feel so alone now.

 

[Nem]

Sorry that sounds bad, your flat mates sound like professional losers. Sorry that you're dealing with this, I'm taking this is after you had made a plan to die?
Peace/hugs

 

[BPDbitch]

Sorry that sounds bad, your flat mates sound like professional losers. Sorry that you're dealing with this, I'm taking this is after you had made a plan to die?
Peace/hugs❤

Thank you, yes I'd been planning for quite a while but now I regret attempting Can't change what has happened though.

 

[WhiteDespair]

That is going to be a bitch to learn to live with. You can do it. It's possible. It does require honesty and work.

You'll be unconquerable once you do.

 

[Oyoy]

You can find someone more affectinat. He sounds like a dweeb .

 

[Lostandfound7]

I'm sorry honey..relationships can b so hard. Esp when u don't get the emotional support ur looking for..Give him a min to process what's goin on n take some time yourself..
As for ur housemates, they can kiss ur azz..

 

[BPDbitch]

I'm sorry honey..relationships can b so hard. Esp when u don't get the emotional support ur looking for..Give him a min to process what's goin on n take some time yourself..
As for ur housemates, they can kiss ur azz..

We are talking better now. He is still very hurt and upset and angry, understandably so, but hopefully we will work through it together.

I saw one of them earlier and she flat out ignored me which is fine by me!

 

[Lostandfound7]

We are talking better now. He is still very hurt and upset and angry, understandably so, but hopefully we will work through it together.

I saw one of them earlier and she flat out ignored me which is fine by me!

Well I can understand how he may b feeling..Glad ur good..♡

She's probably like "WTF!"!

 

[TelstraSuckAFatOne]

They don't know your struggles and not many of us do either, I know it's easier said then done but ignore them you don't need that kind of energy around when you're fighting your own battles. Talk with your partner and if he has any compassion he will be willing to work through it with you!
Best of luck.

 

[SuicideBoys93]

So, after spending £15 I don't have on a taxi home from A&E last night, one of my flatmates gave me a weird look (they were all howling with laughter when the paramedics/police showed up too), so I just went to bed instead of having some food because I wanted out of the kitchen.

Now today I was wanting to go and see my boyfriend who lives an hour and a half away, for some company as all my family live much further away. But he doesn't want to see me, and I'm scared that he is going to finish with me again which will probably tip me over the edge. I just want to see someone/have a cuddle and I can't even have that.

Also have a horrible ligature mark and throat/neck pain, so that is fantastic. Really glad I'm alive, it's great

I don't know your relationship, but take a step back and view it from his lens. I know my wife would be mad/hurt after an attempt. Try and not panic! If he needs some space to comprehend the situation. Allow it! I would start planning how you two could potentially talk about the attempt, and your overall current mind state. If your plan is to forward from this, see what you two can do to better yourself. In return it'd help your relationship. If you ever need someone to talk to let me know.

 

[faust]

Wish I could hug you right now, even though you are on another continent
It is so sad that your bf does not want to see you, honestly, I would take some time. Maybe he is shocked, maybe he lost confidence in tomorrow.
Please, take care of yourself and do not make any conclusions too early

 

[Crushed_Innocence]

I know how you feel honey. We all want someone to cuddle & be close to it is devastating to feel shit out by your BF in your time of need. Im so sorry honey. I know that live causes the most excruciating enotional suffering one can experince. I wish you didnt have to go through it. We all need love... sending u huggs