SomewhereAlongThe
Goodbye everyone <3
- May 17, 2024
- 466
I just know suicide is the right the decision for me.
This is because I'm literally sensitive to everything.
I go downstairs and I'm sensitive to my roommate's presence, I don't want them around.
Then they groan about something and I'm sensitive to their negative energy that I'm nervous could be directed at me.
I get ready to go grocery shopping and say goodbye to my staff, I find my goodbye to be full of life and theirs is dry and dead "bye." as though they hate me.
I'm sensitive to feeling neglected by my group home's staff, yes I'm independent, but does it hurt for them to offer a drive to the grocery store when it's raining outside?
I'm sensitive to showing this side of me, because I'm afraid people will say I'm overreacting.
When I'm on the bus I'm sensitive to the loud noises, the crashing and banging, makes me want to puke.
I'm sensitive to not being noticed in public, if only I was prettier.
I'm sensitive to people's body language in the grocery store, if they seem angry because I'm in the way or want to push past me.
A man coughed all of sudden from right behind me, and I'm sensitive to that.
I'm sensitive to if the bus driver says hi back and lowers the platform for my buggy.
I'm sensitive to if my roommate is in the kitchen when I come back to unload my groceries, as I wish I had my own space at that time.
This is my sensitivities just around grocery shopping. I feel like not living is a good idea because my autism makes me so out of touch and sensitive to everything.
This is because I'm literally sensitive to everything.
I go downstairs and I'm sensitive to my roommate's presence, I don't want them around.
Then they groan about something and I'm sensitive to their negative energy that I'm nervous could be directed at me.
I get ready to go grocery shopping and say goodbye to my staff, I find my goodbye to be full of life and theirs is dry and dead "bye." as though they hate me.
I'm sensitive to feeling neglected by my group home's staff, yes I'm independent, but does it hurt for them to offer a drive to the grocery store when it's raining outside?
I'm sensitive to showing this side of me, because I'm afraid people will say I'm overreacting.
When I'm on the bus I'm sensitive to the loud noises, the crashing and banging, makes me want to puke.
I'm sensitive to not being noticed in public, if only I was prettier.
I'm sensitive to people's body language in the grocery store, if they seem angry because I'm in the way or want to push past me.
A man coughed all of sudden from right behind me, and I'm sensitive to that.
I'm sensitive to if the bus driver says hi back and lowers the platform for my buggy.
I'm sensitive to if my roommate is in the kitchen when I come back to unload my groceries, as I wish I had my own space at that time.
This is my sensitivities just around grocery shopping. I feel like not living is a good idea because my autism makes me so out of touch and sensitive to everything.
