I don't think I will. I'm on two anti psychotics now, which are even worse than antidepressant's. I got myself into this horrific mess. Thank you for your kind thoughts, however, much appreciated.
please don't believe that healing is impossible. it is possible. it won't be easy, or necessarily a short process, but what is even 5 years in the course of lifetime? people aren't told this but it can take 10 years for the brain to heal, years can go by with a flatline you would be sure is permanent. I've been there. the brain is not static and it can rewire around areas of profound damage, like I had/have. it breaks my heart how many wind up giving up because of these god damn poisons!! i know a man, he went off benzos after being on them for decades, cold turkey, and it took him 10 years to get better, but he did. he couldn't talk, think, nothing, he certainly would not have been able to get on a computer and join a group like this, or even type a word let alone understand one, but by the end of his 50's he got better. his brain finally recuperated and he is still alive today. I'm not saying it would take you or anyone else 10 years, I'm just trying to illustrate that you are not alone, and, as nightmarish as it is to believe, there have been others even worse who have recovered. i cannot curse the pharmaceutical corporations hard enough for the crimes they get away with and lobby hard in DC to make sure than can continue. hang in there.Wow your words are so powerful, thank you for sharing them. I can't even get off these meds TO heal though. And I was on surviving antidepressants, I just got worse. I was in Effexor withdrawal already when I reacted badly to a supplement and was hospitalized. I was placed on klonopin rhen risperidone against my will. I tried tapering the risperidone, which set me off and I went to the hospital again, voluntarily and let them put me on seroquel. I hate the seroquel so much, it has really brought me down even more. And there's no way I'll be able to taper these things safely without setting myself off again. I feel so crappy on them too, I just need to pass away. It's so terrible, I have a family who loves me and I made these stupid choices that made healing impossible.
Thank you so much
my doctor is an angel, because after seeing multiple doctors over 15 years and getting told that everything is fine with me, she has worked with me through over another 10 years to diagnose and fix multiple issues. unlike many doctors and people, she is willing to think outside her own little world and doesn't rely on reading case studies. her wisdom is not limited to what other people have told her to believe. she goes above and beyond what the average person will ever do
