Venting Mornings

[StarryStarry]

I hate the mornings. Just another day for me to be a failure. Sitting in my house without a job, knowing not only do I need to ctb I will HAVE to ctb because of my circumstances. My cat sits by my side constantly as if she knows what our future holds. I dread xmas. Absolutely hate it. My daughter and I used to celebrate xmas together - we would go to the mall and sit on Santa's lap, buy as many candy canes as we could, wear stupid sweaters, decorate the house. Now I hate the thought of it. The hate scares me. What a waste of a life - if someone had reached out to me my story may have had a better ending. Sorry, I digress. Life is what it is - it sucks. Nothing is going to change for me. Time will not heal my wounds. Chris will not come back ... so overwhelmed so sad.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I hate the mornings. Just another day for me to be a failure. Sitting in my house without a job, knowing not only do I need to ctb I will HAVE to ctb because of my circumstances. My cat sits by my side constantly as if she knows what our future holds. I dread xmas. Absolutely hate it. My daughter and I used to celebrate xmas together - we would go to the mall and sit on Santa's lap, buy as many candy canes as we could, wear stupid sweaters, decorate the house. Now I hate the thought of it. The hate scares me. What a waste of a life - if someone had reached out to me my story may have had a better ending. Sorry, I digress. Life is what it is - it sucks. Nothing is going to change for me. Time will not heal my wounds. Chris will not come back ... so overwhelmed so sad.

Mornings are the worst. Reality bleeds in with the light of day. So bleak and empty. Utterly hopeless.

 

[StarryStarry]

Mornings are the worst. Reality bleeds in with the light of day. So bleak and empty. Utterly hopeless.

Thank you for understanding.

 

[ClownMe]

Mornings are horrible, every day I wake up it feels like Groundhog Day.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, mornings can be dreadful when every day brings so much pain and suffering. Knowing things will never change is such a hopeless feeling. I hope you find peace.