Might have to jump

[classicfukup]

So I was hesitant to post this but Idk what else to do. My life is irreparably fucked up and I have the ability to probably either jump 13 stories or partial hanging. I'm afraid with partial hanging that it will make too much noise or I will stand up after going unconscious. I am also afraid that I will survive the jump since I'm really close to multiple hospitals. Failure of either method is pretty scary and I can't handle things getting any worse. Probably don't have many other options, won't go in to detail. Any thoughts on some way to make it easier to jump or ctb in general? Thanks, best of luck to you all.

 

[CassieHoward]

it's entirely up to you to overcome that fear. some people suggest anti-anxiety medication or remedies but i prefer to believe that it's up to each person to come to terms with such things on their own. risk of failure is a very real thing and is something one always has to be cognizant of. if you're truly certain that this is the path you want to take, i'm confident you'll be able to muster up the courage to do what you feel is best.

 

[Sick of it all]

It's hard finding an easy way to CTB. If there was one easy way then none of us would be here. CTB is a very personal decision. Look around the site and weigh the pros and cons of each method and you might get a better answer.

 

[FrootyBat]

You will be dead if you jump higher than the 10th floor. I would recommend some muscle relaxers if possible. Try to do your jump like at Sunday at 4 am. That way you won't have any risk of traumatizing or landing on anyone.

I wish you good luck with whatever you choose to do.

 

[Zegers]

you can try with SN or if you choose to jump, reduce SI with meds

 

[classicfukup]

You will be dead if you jump higher than the 10th floor. I would recommend some muscle relaxers if possible. Try to do your jump like at Sunday at 4 am. That way you won't have any risk of traumatizing or landing on anyone.

I wish you good luck with whatever you choose to do.

Thanks for your input. I read about this guy that jumped from the 13th floor at college and landed on his legs. He ended up mangled and screaming for like 30 minutes. That being said, maybe a hospital can't do a whole lot at that point - however, it seems a bit too messy of a way out. Adrenaline rush could help. What would the muscle relaxers be for? Might be able to down a bottle of wine beforehand. Thanks

you can try with SN or if you choose to jump, reduce SI with meds

Any general idea where and how quickly I can acquire SN without breaking the forum rules? I will see what meds I have on hand that could help with the SI.

I also read somewhere that 100 yew seeds (taxus baccata) would work. Does anyone have any more information about that? How long would SI take to ensure ctb without being revived? (Sorry, I will read the SI mega thread.) Maybe I could make the yew seeds or SI work depending on how long it would take.

 

[wait.what]

Maybe the muscle relaxers help deal with the anxiety? I've heard that having muscles that are super relaxed and floppy can cause you to survive physical trauma you otherwise wouldn't. Like supposedly that's why drunk drivers so often walk away from accidents in which other people are killed. That may be BS though. It also might be irrelevant if you fall from above a certain height.

If I can sustain the motivation for longer than about 30 seconds, maybe I can look the info up.

Edit:

Results of briefly-sustained motivation:

1) The odds of surviving a long fall start getting really low after about 70 feet, although it's hard to say when they hit zero. There have been a couple of documented cases where people survived falls out of airplanes that were at altitude. There are a ton of variables involved that can tilt the scale either toward survival or away.

2) If you are trying to ctb, a head-first fall several stories onto concrete ought to do the trick.

3) Keeping your body relaxed and flexible might possibly improve your survival odds in a serious "accident." (Or a serious "on purpose." Whichever.) Again, there are a lot of variables to take into account, so it's difficult to say.

4) It's actually a myth that drunk drivers survive fatal accidents more often than the people they hit. If a drunk driving accident has fatalities, 65% of the time the drunk driver is among the dead. <--That statistic comes solely from U.S. data, so take it how you will.

 

[FuneralCry]

Jumping sounds like a terrifying method to me and I think that those who managed to ctb this way must had been very desperate. I envy their courage. I understand having limited access to methods, it really is unfair how dying is this difficult. The fear of failure is what holds me back from attempting personally, it really is so scary the thought of methods going wrong. I hope that you find freedom from what you are going through as none of us here should have to endure such suffering.