I'd personally wish for a death as peaceful and painless as possible, I just want to never suffer ever again and I suffer so much from how the option for me to just cease existing in peace is so cruelly denied even know this existence was imposed in the first place. I just want a death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep where finally this cruel, futile existence can all be forgotten about, non-existence truly is all that's desirable for me, it's all that can bring me any relief, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer.