Venting message from my own demons

[hellispink]

truth meet me tonight, how many months without sleep, i have lost sight, every inch of my body aches along with my heart. What is it I see in the mirror? I look so dead, empty and dirty. What a disgrace, to be me. It is so heavy knowing I have to leave. Waking every four hours, to new nightmares and horrible dreams, my anxiety at is peak. My soul is a torment, a horrible storm grows within me, and is taking me away with it. Drowning completely, did they see, did they listen…. Replaceable, my soul is so ill. Forgotten is what I meant to be. My insides are burning, everything is on ashes, the agony fills me every morning and second. Fuck, this is exhausting, wish I had a gun to blew out my head, so it shuts up finally.

 

[Euthanza]

Wouldn't it be so nice just to sleep not to wake up again ever

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Wouldn't it be so nice just to sleep not to wake up again ever

My fantasy

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence really is torture, and I envy those who have left this world. None of us here should ever have to endure such pain. I see death as being freedom from everything, I would also like to never wake again.

 

[ojinzo]

truth meet me tonight, how many months without sleep, i have lost sight, every inch of my body aches along with my heart. What is it I see in the mirror? I look so dead, empty and dirty. What a disgrace, to be me. It is so heavy knowing I have to leave. Waking every four hours, to new nightmares and horrible dreams, my anxiety at is peak. My soul is a torment, a horrible storm grows within me, and is taking me away with it. Drowning completely, did they see, did they listen…. Replaceable, my soul is so ill. Forgotten is what I meant to be. My insides are burning, everything is on ashes, the agony fills me every morning and second. Fuck, this is exhausting, wish I had a gun to blew out my head, so it shuts up finally.

This was beautiful to me