Venting Merry Christmas I need to be sicker

[lonergirl_26]

I need to be sick
People will like me then
I will have friends then
I will have someone to talk to
I'm not sick enough
I've never spent more than a night in hospital no matter how bad I was
People are sectioned and get help
People who weigh much more than I do
they don't cut as deep as I do
They are cunts to everyone
Yet they get help
No one will help me
I was abandoned by my doctor because she didn't know how else to help me
Mental health services haven't been in contact with me even though I'm supposed to be a priority
My mum was supposed to call them after she found out about my overdose back in September but she never did
I'm not sick enough
I need to be skinnier
I need to cute deeper
I need to do harder drugs
I need to be so sick that people will actually like me

 

[Hvergelmir]

This is a fallacy, and what you need is probably a change in social circles.
Friendships founded on weakness are prone to exploitation.

I hope you'll find a more sensible direction.