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Draconis

Draconis

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Jun 8, 2024
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Next year i will get a ticket to freedom i wish i have more opportunities like to easy get my hands on a gun or get some deadly synthetic opioids.
This decision comes as a shock and cause stress in the mind/body in the shape of doubt and fear.Overthinking,catastrophizing,the fear of failure.
All this have reduced and acceptence of your death/the age of your death will cause a shift to be more calm and confident.I dont believe in miracles but i pray
that i dont need to CTB with my own hands next year i pray to god that when i sleep tonight that i never wake up.

I know it´s not easy to do the mental and emotional work to be calm and confident on your last good day on this planet and i think this is the reason that people put some time
before CTB it also to give life a chance(miracles never happens)but it´s the planning and preperations,some time to work through yourself and your life and the mental/emotional to be calm,strong and confident on your last day.

I have come a long way over this bridge but some journey left to reach the other side and become fully a transformed lion(lions are strong,calm,confident creatures with no fear or doubt)

I will be stronger next year before i go...
 
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Iloveher

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Jul 17, 2024
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I think the best way to train for CTB is not to think of it like its something important. To think of it like a task you have to accomplish at one point. Not to think of the consequences, just be in the moment , when the time comes and try to go through with it as if youre accomplishing a task at work or youre finishing a game you been laying for a long time.
However , I believe you should be certain that this is your choice , your best choice. Dont do it because youre experiencing a moment of extreme depression. Do it on a clear mind, do it when youre certain that life is not worth living anymore.
 
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