Venting Maybe tonight?

[mr nobody]

I've been doing ok for the last week or so, but then when I go home I feel extremely lonely and I literally lay on my couch all day with nothing to do. I don't really have friends to talk to and with everything going on, there isn't much to do. For those of you that don't know, I had a failed attempt about a month ago using the CO method in my car. A few weeks ago I actually went and purchased a portable charcoal grill and two bags of charcoal again. My thoughts come and go. I'm on Lexapro so I don't really feel "sad." I've been thinking about maybe going through with it tonight.

 

[itsmeagain]

I've been doing ok for the last week or so, but then when I go home I feel extremely lonely and I literally lay on my couch all day with nothing to do. I don't really have friends to talk to and with everything going on, there isn't much to do. For those of you that don't know, I had a failed attempt about a month ago using the CO method in my car. A few weeks ago I actually went and purchased a portable charcoal grill and two bags of charcoal again. My thoughts come and go. I'm on Lexapro so I don't really feel "sad." I've been thinking about maybe going through with it tonight.

Oh my goodness, hello sweet darling. I'm so sorry to hear you feel like tonight may be your last night.... I had a last night planned too and somehow I'm still here. <3 I have had some hard times myself and bounce between feeling "Happy" and "Happy but suicidal" and "Depressed and not suicidal" and "depressed and suicidal"! It's truly something awful that I know so many people grapple with. I know you're feeling lonely and like there's not another soul in the world. If you wish, you could PM me and I would be happy to speak with you. I am not always the best at keeping up but I always try <3. If you'd like a more direct, casual type of conversation, perhaps jumping into the general chat at the top may help? <3 Wishing you love and hope from a place of hopelessness and shattered pieces of my heart <3

 

[Deathwish1968]

Sorry you are feeling so lonely
If you need someone to talk to , PM me.

 

[mr nobody]

Thank you guys for the offers. I appreciate it.

 

[BizarreBazaar]

If you don't mind my asking, how do you think your CO attempt failed? How many briqs did you use? Do you think your car was appropriately sealed?

 

[mr nobody]

Here's a thread I posted about it. I only failed because I had texted my girlfriend and she got to me in time. I woke up in the hospital with severe CO poisoning. It's a miracle I didn't go into a coma.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/unsuccessful-carbon-monoxide-attempt.37482/#post-695442

 

[BizarreBazaar]

When you mention you woke up in the hospital, does that mean you'd been knocked unconscious?

 

[mr nobody]

When you mention you woke up in the hospital, does that mean you'd been knocked unconscious?

Yea I'd you click that thread you can see all the details, but basically the CO knocked me out after about 10-15min of being inside the car. It wasn't until the hospital gave me 100% oxygen that I regained consciousness.